5 things that made me :)

Sometimes, all I want is a holiday, a button to 'Pause' whatever that has been happening so that I can 'Rewind' and reflect; and probably 'Fast Forward' to anticipate what's going to happen. Then, I get back to the point where I paused and hit the 'Play' button again.

'Things happen for a reason...' people say. It sounds vague, meaningless until something significant really does happen because most of the time, I wouldn't know what the reason is. I get stuck thinking about what the reason may be and not move on to embrace what is being offered for me to learn and appreciate.

It was difficult to think about or do the things which makes me happy. In Seremban, I have no time to dance and even if I do, I have no space. Dancing in a park is a 'NO' for me. The next thing which makes me happy would be playing the piano but unfortunately, the keyboard in the clinical school has been taken away for a project and the piano at home hasn't been tuned. Taking pictures used to be something I love but it was rather inconvenient to bring a camera around the clinical school to take pictures. It would be weird since the atmosphere is always so tensed.

Then, I realise that it's the little things that count. If I stopped thinking about all the problems which multiplies by 2 every time I think about them and just observe how things work around me or how things are around me, I'd probably see something beyond sick or dying people,..

...no dark and twisted place for the mind to be trapped.

So, the relatively little things which I came across last week which made me a bit happier:

1) Interesting accessories

No matter where I go, it seems like I can't run away from Medicine. :) Honestly, I've only met a handful of nurses who are nice to students. Most nurses I previously met were mean but in this posting, I've met nice ones who are willing to teach. Back to the earrings, ^^ they are adorable and the only pair left. I did not get it though because I did not think it would be appropriate to wear it in the hospital setting and I did not want to be reminded of work when I'm out with my friends. Ooh, and it was RM9.90.

2) Kids

I love children mainly because they are still naive and they are easy to read. They don't or hardly hide their emotions when they are sad, angry, annoyed. When they are happy, they are living the moment. That is something I need to do : Live the moment before it passes by and I missed it completely.

3) Bright colours

You have to admit that bright colours really does lighten a person's mood. Bright colours are the opposite of emo. I can't possibly think of anything emo when I see yellow, orange and light blue. :) Although Pooh looks jaundiced most of the time, Pooh does not emo. (the movie is coming out next year!)

4) Art

I love creativity. I love to see the creativity of individuals in process or in end result. It inspires me in a way that it reminds me to challenge myself to think out of the box. I have been avoiding the challenges I faced. As a result, I don't get far when my peers do once they overcome them one after the other. I guess my coping mechanism is different from them or mine has got a defect in it.

5) Seeing things from a different angle through a different lense

'take one step at a time with me until we reach the end'

Baby steps are important in getting back up and going back to finish what you started. It's not easy to take baby steps when there's no one around to encourage and give moral support. Just think about it... a baby has to be encouraged to crawl, move and walk around. When they fall and hurt themselves, they just need to have someone to hold their hands so that they feel secure and if they fall again, it would not be as bad as the first time. :)