Saturday, May 30, 2009

Angels and Demons



I FINALLY WATCHED IT!!! (with my brother *grins*)

We went for the 11.30am showtime and there were a lot of people. I was not sure if it was a fullhouse though. I enjoyed this 2 hour 19 minutes movie simply because I think the plot was brilliant. I have not read the book yet but based from the other blogs that I've read and comments that I've heard, the book is much better than the movie because there is more action in the book.

However, for those who haven't read the book, this movie is simply awesome. From the movie, everything started because of one particular person. He planned the murders and everything else. He made others believe in what he made up. And, I did not even suspect anything until the last 30 minutes probably. The ending was good because of a few twists in the story.

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After the movie, my brother and I looked at a few laptops. Some were nice, some weren't that nice. I like the Lenovo IdeaPad and the Sony Vaio (not too sure about the model). Then, I bought a few coloured paper for card making and walked around MidValley in search of sweaters. I finally bought one and I totally love it because my brother and I had the same opinion about it. It's the best deal I've seen because it was a discounted item. 60%!!! in Metrojaya.

Wheeee ~~~

Friday, May 29, 2009

Some thoughts

Today will be the first cheerleading meeting for my house and I'm a little nervous. I'm also a little excited. I met a lot of new people and spoke to a few friends who gave me good pieces of advice.

Ghost Whisperer Episode 23 was very interesting and I would say that it's a little creepy. I can't wait to see the next episode, and the following season!

I just thought that I'd pen/type some thoughts before I sleep.

1. I want to watch Angels and Demons
2. I want to watch 17 again.
3. I want my holidays!!!
4. I want things to work well.
5. I need what I need and what I need is unknown to me.

I'm yet to embark on another journey of card making. I'm just so reluctant to do so because I lack a few materials. Wish me luck in completing it in time and that this idea in my head would work. =)

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Getting a cake for mummy...

Today's my mum's birthday. It is also Teck Jian's birthday. TJ is all the way in Nottingham. So, I could only wish him online.

So, I thought, "I'd like to surprise mummy with a cake". This thought, I never knew would bring me a lot of experience. It was my first time getting someone a cake. This means driving to the cake shop, finding a parking and purchasing it. I was excited. I even told my brother confidently that I'll get the cake. But this thought of doing it alone bothered me. It lingered in my mind until afternoon and I wondered if I should get my friends to accompany me. In that way, I could probably stay out of trouble and they knew the way to Berry's too (I think it's spelt that way).

Since I had to reach home before 6.30pm, I thought I'd leave WAAYY earlier. I walked to the other side of the library where I met a few more batchmates of mine. They were having a Behavioural Science Class earlier and were part of the videotaping too. I thought of dragging Chee Leong with me at first, but then since Joo Hor and Tai were there as well, why not? Chee Leong has been nice :D because he doesn't complain or reject my request of accompanying me up the hill to get my car. (To first time readers, there has been a few robberies.)

The three of them decided to go to CC (Cyber Cafe) instead of studying. Well, it's a healthy thing to do I suppose especially when they've had a busy week. Mine would be next week. :S Anyway, they went back to their apartment to change and bring along their mouse for the DotA game. Scary as it may sound but to me, they're like SERIOUS gamers. hehe. While waiting for them, I did the most random thing I don't think I would have done. Besides talking to a stranger (no, she talked to me first about cab fares), I was sketching trees. Don't ask me why but trees have been my thing lately.

I had to do a little briefing about my driving because I was really afraid of getting into another accident. And our journey began...

I drove to Berry's but it was closed. I drove past Bread and Tart (I think) but it was closed too. Then, we went to Bee's. I managed to get a parking and my car was horribly parked. I took two spaces. Well, I wasn't the only one. In the end, I decided to go to Secret Recipe because I think the cake would have been more worth it as compared to those in Bee's. Not only did I have the feeling, but Joo Hor too... of the cake not tasting as nice as how it looks. So, our next stop was in Secret Recipe where along the journey, I missed three turnings which I could have taken. :D [Then, I got to know that the shops were closed because of the Chinese tradition, something to do with Zhang]

There was a point where I was supposed to make sort of like a U-turn into a smaller road. That particular road had a LOT of cars parked at the side. Thinking about it now, it was a hilarious yet embarassing moment. I had the feeling that I was going to hit this Kancil which was side parked. The last time I thought I'd make it, I got into an accident. So, that's why I'm not taking chances now. This was how it went...

E: NOOO!!! I'm not going to make it!
CL: Can.. Go.. Go.. Go..
E: NOOO.... *Still releasing the brakes slowly* It's gonna hit it.. It's gonna hit it!!!

Then, I could hear overlapping voices:

JH + CL + Tai: Just go.. Can.. Can.. Go.. Go.. Got a lot of space..

*What a lot of space? From my view, I see it as close to approximately an inch*

JH + CL + Tai: Can.. Go.. Go.. Still got a lot of space...

I think that went on for a minute. After making that turn, the next challenge was parking the car. It was horrendous! For me to side park, I'd never do it unless time calls for it and I did not expect that time to come so fast. Once again, I had my teachers guiding me because I've had an accident before of reversing and hitting another car. My sensors do work but I just don't trust them sometimes.

The end result of the parking was once again bad. Yet, I could hear comforting words from Joo Hor who was talking to Chee Leong, "Oh, since that BIG car can drive pass the road, then, other cars can. So, no problem with the parking." Chee Leong and Tai just agreed. When I got down the car, there were A LOT OF SPACE. My side parking if you could imagine (for medic students) was like an inch from the midclavicular line, only, in reality, make that inch about 3 feet from the pavement.

After everything, I dropped them by the road where they crossed over to the CC and I headed home. My mum cooked today: tom yam, vegetarian meat, fried mixed vege and marinated fried chicken which was absolutely great! She was a little surprised with the cake. She liked it. And, yeah, it's been one heck of a journey for me today.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

BeN'Z ver 6.09

A friend of mine recently came back to the blogosphere. I've added it in my list and here is what I think about it. When he sent me his link and saw the title, I knew it would be something good coming from him. Yes, high hopes and expectations from me are something he probably can live with. To my batchmates, yes, it's Benedict's blog!

BeN'Z ver 6.09
has got a simple layout which looks like a pro-blogger's but usually pro-blogger’s would use a three column layout. In my personal opinion, it is the title of the blog, navigation bar and the gadgets on the sidebar. The title makes me think that it is the latest technology or software but simply, the blogger is just conveying the message that he is back, his posts are better from before and definitely different from the I-am-back-type-of-post. The navigation bar allows you to move to different page elements such as BeN’Zone, YoU N BeN’Z and BlOgGeR$. You may think that it is messy but this is simply a style that the blogger is trying to portray. He has written more about each of it. So, you could go check it out!

Well, he did tell me that one day, he hopes to reach that level and I think he has what it takes because he is clear about what he wants to publish: something beneficial, funny and definitely not a letdown. Would it be too early to tell? I guess you would have to come back to check out his other posts just like how I would. I'm yet to know what his contents are like but I have faith in him. *Don't let me/us down*

The sidebar has got many gadgets as mentioned earlier. What I like about it is that he tells his readers what to expect in a couple days time. He also has his own Word showing what he was thinking on that specific date which sometimes, I find inspirational. This is something you have to look out because I can’t exactly describe it. But, one thing is for sure. These are his original and thoroughly thought through thoughts. (a little bit of unintended tongue twister) Nevertheless, I still think that the chatbox should be a little higher. There are two ways to looking at it. The good thing about having it higher is that people would know that it exists but if that is all they look at, then, the other gadgets beneath the chatbox are ignored. On the other hand, people would scroll down to find the chatbox and come across the other gadgets.

Besides that, it is a norm to have archives listed as the last but have you ever wonder why that is so? There are also games such as hangman which I’ve tried playing. It is a gadget provided by blogger and somehow addictive. He also has his youtube channel which I would say, check it out too! Some videos are cool while some videos are seemingly okay. I think videos should not be judged or rated on just how interesting it is or how it is presented but also the fact that how the person came up with the idea and the challenges to do so.

It is easy for a person to say that this is a lame thing or this is not nice etc but when it comes to thinking about why the administrator or producer chose it in the beginning, you would realise that some things are not chosen like a snap of the finger. It must have been with much consideration because that is how he wants others to view his blog/videos.

Ads are up everywhere! We all know what to do next and definitely know why we, bloggers, put them up in the first place. So, start clicking away! For non-bloggers, you could do us a favour in clicking on our ads *grins* Yes, this dude may seem to have too many ads. But to me, it is fine as long as I can see and read the contents.For now, I would ignore the previous posts because those were written a few years ago and the fonts are of different sizes and a little too colourful for my liking. I suppose everyone including me would very much like to keep a part of ourselves for memories to read back.

Feel free to comment about my *first-time* review about a blog, his blog or anything else in here or in his blog.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Subjective-ness


Many things are subjective. There isn't exactly a definite right or wrong answer. The thoughts of something takes place in the mind and is modified by individual biasness. Just like the hay-looking yarn ball you see above. They look similar but they are all diferent. Do you think the quality would be the same? Well, they are after all just hay-looking yarn balls which caught my eye. Today, I may think that it is a genius creation. Tomorrow, it may just be a decoration.

I was checking my AIR Topic result a couple of days ago and I freaked out when I got to know my results. It was bad. It was something that I did not expect. The first person I texted was Jene. Well, she read all my 'freaked-out' text messages and even today. When I got to know how my other friends did, well, some part of me was happy for them but the other part made me feel very disappointed. Was it the marking system? Was it hope I phrased my words? Or was it simply just the different mode the lecturer was in?

Then, I got to know a couple more of other people's results. As stressful as it may sound, I account this to one person who made me realise that it is okay because things happen. I'm pretty sure that not all but some of you have been in a situation where others use part of your work and they get better grades/compliments for it and you don't. Sometimes, I see it coming and choose ignore it because of the small possibility of it happening.But now that it has happened, maybe next time, I'll do something about it.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

In black and white

It was a pretty warm day and I had basketball training to attend to. The big game is coming soon and I definitely do not want to be unprepared. I still remember how my friends and I were so enthusiastic about this big day. It would be our first time participating in it and who knows, perhaps our passion might lead us down the road of an extraordinary life.

Yet, despite the warmth, I could see clouds gathering above the court I am at as if they were there to watch how the training goes. The wind cooled the heat of our sweaty skin and the gentle breeze that blew my hair made me feel like I can do whatever I want. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the breeze for a little while and tried preparing myself mentally just like how I do for every game I play be it a training or a real competition.

From afar, I could see my other friends sitting on the benches where the team has left their belongings mainly the water bottles, face towels and shoes. They were cheering and some of them were holding a few pieces of white paper which looks like lecture notes to me. I gestured, saying 'Hi' to them and they waved back. I was glad to see them. Sometimes, happy faces make me want to give more than 100% of effort.

I continued with training. One step to the right, then, quickly, to the left... One half turn, I continued dribbling the ball with my left, then, changed to my right. I ran past one, no... two defenders. I stepped with my right foot and took a leap and my right hand, tossing the basketball in the air, hoping that it will go in... *I could hear myself breathing deeply* Then I heard my team cheered. Way to go! It looked like a good start to the day for me.

After half an hour or so, coach asked us to take a time out. I thought I would never hear those words. I was already pretty drained. I walked towards my friends because that was where my things were. I grabbed my red water bottle and drank some water. Aaah.... How refreshing. Nothing beats a cool drink on a warm day. Then, my friend pulled my shirt. She pointed to her lecture notes and asked me, 'Hey, do you know what this is and what it does? Could you explain it to me?'

I looked and I read what was there. It was 3 pages long but everything summarized one thing. The notes may look different but the content was the same as mine. They were notes on Embryology of the Gastrointestinal System. I just read that last week but to my amazement, I recalled nothing about what she was asking. As I read the resources that she has, I tried to explain it to her in my own words just like I usually do. Before I could start, coach called us to get back into the basketball court.

He said, 'It looks like it's going to rain. So you should practice as much as you can before it actually does.'

Training started again and everything was as usual. The player on the opposite team fouled the ball and it was given to me to start. I stood and I looked at the ball in my hands. I see a few drops of sweat falling on the dirty orange ball. I bounced it a couple of times and then, I looked up. But, I did not know who to throw the ball to. I saw friends trying to get pass their defences and asked me to throw the ball to them but I could not decide. That's because I saw everything in black and white. I could not recognize my own team members either. The faces were unrecognized.

What was wrong with me?

The game had to go on, I simply threw the ball to the nearest girl who has been gesturing for quite a while. Assuming that she was in my team, I took that chance. She took the ball and she dribbled it all the way and scored. Another point, yay! But, I still could not explain what just happened. I shut my eyes tightly, bent down and hoped that it was just because the lethargy was getting to me plus the shadow of the clouds over our heads must have made me delusional. Coach asked me if I was okay and I just said that everything is fine. I stood up straight and tried to maintain composure. I looked ahead at where the road was, bright and sunny... It seemed to me that I see colours again.

I knew it. It was just in my head. But, it did not just end there. When I turned around to see my friends and see the game, it was in black and white. Coach called me out the team and put someone else in my place. He asked me what was bothering me that made me distracted. I hesitated to tell him. Had I told him, he probably would not put me on the team anymore and part of my dreams to play for in the big game would have gone down the drain. All the effort and time spent would have been for nothing.

Yet, I tried to slip in the question without him noticing that I was the one having the problem.

"Coach, have you ever felt like when you're looking at something under a shady place, all you see is in black and white? But when you look at something that's under the sun, there are colours in it?"

Coach looked at me. He gave a smile. I tried not to look worried and looked up to him. While I waited for his answer, there was a moment of silence, a pause to everything that's happening around me. The thin tree that was slunting due to the wind blow remained slunted although there is no wind. Coach put his right hands on my left shoulder and said...

"If you see that, then, you must be dreaming. But, you're not dreaming, are you? Because then, you wouldn't be playing basketball."

Will trying to figure out what he meant, I began to lost the image of him and everything else that was around me. All I saw was a black background with nothing. I came to my senses and felt myself lying on something soft and my hands were holding something soft too. My legs were tangled up in something. My eyes opened abruptly like I was in shock and I found myself to be on my bed.

It was all a dream. But, was it just a dream or is there something more to that?

Unconsciously, we all take the ability to see colours for granted. I knew that I could not handle seeing things in black white even when it was just a dream. So, every time I wake up, I thank God, for my eyes and letting me see how beautiful things are. Books may not have the prettiest yellow but it's still yellow. My alarm clock may have the dullest purple mixed with a tinge of blue but I'm okay with that because I can see colours. =)

Saturday, May 23, 2009

ICA 2

It was 3 am already and I had just finished a quick-browse hrough the whole of GIT without touching the pathology and parasitology section. I could not sleep and so, I did what I thought I had to do. Plus, I remembered peanuts about GIT. Then, I thought, 'Hey, I haven't prepared my stationeries yet.'

It was then when I realised that I've got only ONE ball pen and ONE ink pen of which the ink was finishing soon. Since I'm someone who gets paranoid over the number of pens I carry into the hall, I used one of my refillers and searched all over for a 'body'/ empty pen cover. I prefer ball pen over ink pen because it wouldn't smudge my paper. Now I know, I'm running out of stationeries.

I went to bed at a little pass 3am. Then, I felt someone poking me telling me to wake up. Time: 7am. Oh crap. I feel like crap.

*dup* *dup* *dup* *dup* *dup* *dup* *dup*

Me: I'm not panicking.

*dup* *dup* *dup* *dup* *dup* *dup**dup*

Me: Wait, I don't think I am. Why am I having palpitations?

*dup* *dup* *dup* *dup* *dup* *dup* *dup*

And that occured until I entered the exam hall. I think it was because of lethargy. So, today was THE day- Summatives for Hemato and GIT system. It was not that bad. Based on how I studied, I guess I deserved the grade. It is a little disappointing for me because I did not expect the MEQ (Multiple Essay Question) to be that tough. =(

So, what was interesting? In the list of answers for a MEQ, there was CHICKENGUINEA and apanese encephalitis. Don't call me retarded but there were many spelling errors. I could have guess the latter which was Japanese Encephalitis but I had no idea if I would be wrong for choosing chickenguinea. That's because I would either be wrong because it really isn't Chikungunya or because the spelling is wrong and students are supposed to detect it.

But now that it's over, I realised that the calmness is not because I don't care about the paper. Just like how Jene and I were discussing about whether it is due to the part of us who has given up or because we are immune. After asking a few people about it, Kay Mun said that we've come to a phase where we know that there is a paper and we've just got to sit for it. It's not like we don't care. Otherwise, we won't be studying. It is also my first time handing in a paper with really neat handwriting. :D

After the paper was the meeting for Cheerleading captains and I'm yet to find someone to take over from me. Then, there was the OSCE Briefing. When it was over, I went to the library to sleep for awhile. I was also talking to Kay Mun for nearly 2 hours. YEAP, I DID NOT REALISE THAT TIME FLEW. We talked about food mainly because he was carrying a cookbook from the library and I asked random questions about whether he likes nuts, mushrooms, potatoes, soup etc. I think I asked him more than 50 questions about food. We also talked about our interests besides medicine to a little bit about relationships from the little 'drama' in the library. *winks* Then, it was a little bit about kids to something that is medically related and FOOD again.

By then, I was already hungry and tired. It was a pleasant chat. =)

Thursday, May 21, 2009

For one more day

One more day left and my stress level has increased just by a little thanks to some people who had to interfere with no bad intentions. I hope it will stay that way. I just need to hang on for one more day.

It's been quite a day and many more to cover. My brother's finally coming home tomorrow and I can't wait to see him but all the excitement has to be kept in until exams are over. Part of me have a good feeling about the paper but the other part tells me to be careful for what I haven't read might just come out and hit me right in the face.

Still, I'd like to believe that I can finish in time although there is a possibility that I might not.

I wonder how you knew where to walk to when the others didn't know. Your advice was helpful. I'll keep in mind and hopefully next time, I'd know what to do.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Drawing using Windows Live Messenger

...and that's only because I was bored. I didn't think that I would be blogging about it one day but I absolutely must share how precious some drawings may be because it takes effort, time, thought and they are memories to me; memories that I'd think about.

Usually, I would draw the display pic I see and then, I'll make up the other half of the picture such as what the person could do. Something befitting their personality of how I see them.

It started out with this (a few weeks ago)... My batchmates could probably guess who this person is. =)
And he said that he looked nerdy.

I drew another and this time, I discovered that I could change the thickness of the pencil, whether I'd prefer a bold one or a thinner one. There are also different types of erasers. One which could erase the whole line with a single click or one which erases the square that is clicked. In other words, for the latter, to erase a line, I would have to hold my click for a longer time and drag the whole eraser.
And the picture turned out to be okay for me. Luckily, there's always the 'undo' and 're-do' button. I use the 'undo' more often and the short key is the same as other programs (Microsoft Office etc) which would be 'Ctrl + Z'. You would probably notice why the changes in size between the first and second drawing. That's because for both, I did not adjust the amount of space available to be the same.

My friend who did not know that the space could be adjusted drew something for me.
Yes, as you can see, it is pretty small. It's just a much as how much you want to type in there. So, I asked him what it was. It's 'supposed' to be me but I couldn't make up what I see. A worm holding a torchlight? What did you think this was? He did write at the side as well but *no offence* I could not read it either. :P When he told me that it is my display picture, *well, it did not ring a bell that he'd draw the dp* I just laughed. I laughed a lot for quite some time. XD

This is my display pic. The picture was taken by Lydia and I absolutely like it.
Do you know now why I laughed? In fact, I thought it's cute too. The grey thingy was supposed to be my bag and the blue lines- my lanyard. I just thought it was cute. The 'worm'-looking picture. hehe.

After my laughs and telling him about what he could do with space, erasers and pencil size, he drew another one. One which I waited for quite some time but it makes me glad. I don't think it was easy but here it is.

It shows me thinking 'So I think this book is too thin & basic' and I was referring to 'Kumar and Clarks'. As much as I would like to say that his drawing is more retarded than mine, but I still appreciate it. With the words and thoughts of obscene sight, that is not me. hehe. I still wouldn't mind it because that's how he is. hehe.

Perhaps, today, you could draw something for a friend, sister/brother, kid or even parents. I do know friends who chat with their parents online. =)

Friday, May 15, 2009

IMU house promo



Benedict made a video to promote the House System a couple of weeks ago. It's hilarious. It was not easy for me to hold the camera phone stable at all times. It's a little soft in the beginning because I had no idea that I was blocking the mic.

While he was doing all that, I was looking away and distracting myself with notices so that I wouldn't laugh. I was counting the petals of flowers on my dress and was reading about swine flu. But, towards the middle, I just couldn't stop laughing.

Wee Kiat came and help me hold the other half when I no longer could hold it. So, enjoy this video. I love the ending. I think it's the most hilarious part. Draco and Pheonix. By the way, I'm in Taurus.

Some of you may think it's crap, but I'm pretty sure that somehow, you found humour in it. :D Don't forget to go to youtube to rate it!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

The 6th one

I thought it would be a great day today but it did not turn out to be that great.

Today, I learnt a lesson about parking, about estimation and about appreciation. I'm still learning and I think He has taught me so many things because this is my 4th accident this year. I was trying to park. As I tried to avoid the car on my right, I did not estimate the space I had on the left. Hence, I my car hit the pillar wall in the carpark basement.

Definitely, my car has got deep scratches and white plaster/paint. I thought my lights would be a 'gone' case but thankfully, it's fine. I am disappointed because I thought I was doing okay in parking but looks like I'm not. All the 6 mistakes I've made are different. T.T Jae Ric said that women are notorious drivers. =.= But, I believe that one day, I'll be well off. Perhaps in a couple more years.

I hardly do side parking. Ever since I've got my license, I probably did it 6 times. I told my mum about it and she told my dad. My dad was teasing me about it by saying 'I've expected it from you.' He told me that when he first learnt to drive, he has made all sorts of mistakes before. So, I don't feel so bad. You could say that it's in the genes, but I don't think that I'm the only one who makes this mistake. I wonder how my brother used to drive. He told me that it would probably be another year or two before he finally sends the car for spraying.

Driving is definitely stressful and I wish I could rant to my brother but I can't because he's away. T.T The first person who I wanted to call was my brother because when I panic, I call him. Instead, this time, I was talking to one of my PBL-mates about this. It was a good opportunity for him to practice Behavioural Science patient interview. Out of the 9 people in my PBL group, 5 were chosen to be part of the video recording and I'm not one of them.

Besides that, I nearly dropped my car keys into the gap in the elevator. T.T I also learnt my lesson about that. Trust me, I did. I do not know what would have happened but thank God, I DID NOT. As I said earlier, He's taught me a LOT.

p/s: Thanks Jene for the raisins. I tak sanggup want to eat it. ^^ It's still in my bag. :D

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Earrings, Brother, Flowers...

It was yesterday when I decided to wear this pair of earrings. My mum got it for me from Penang during Chinese New Year this year.

I totally adore it. What happened was when I went to the library, I felt that something was missing. I soon realised that the weight on one side of my ear was lighter. Yeap, I did lost one. I searched in the auditorium, the library and the staircases. I was a little disappointed because it was as if I did not take care of what I have.

So, I was walking around and was telling Kor Woi, Joo Hor and a couple of others. Until I finally decided to stop looking and hope for someone to find it, I found it under one of the library tables which I just walked passed. ^^ It's not the first that this occured. The first time was in the student lounge, and Jee Chung found it. *luckily...*

Anyway, my brother and his wife flew to Australia a couple of days ago AND I miss him. I can't believe he's married now. I never thought that this day would come where I would have a sister-in-law but the day came. Everytime after I reach home, I would want to talk to him about my day and annoy him all the way but I can't now. I would have to wait patiently until next Thursday when he comes home.

Why the daisies? Well, they just remind me of my brother because he bought them for me when he went to Cameron Highlands. :D He's the best!!! He brings me to different places for dinner. He has brought me to Itallianies, TGIF, Zanmai, Sho-gun before and he always pay for the meals. XD

Speaking of daisies, my brother, his wife and I bought daisies for my mum during Mother's Day! I did not like the lady at the shop. I told her that I would like to hand pick the flowers. I would like to choose a nice stalk. She told me that all the flowers are nice and she wouldn't let me do anything. She wrapped it straight away. I was RIGHT! Out of the three stalks, the flower that I wanted to change was not even nice and it hardly lasted for 1 day.

When she wrapped it, she did not ask how I would like to have it done or what colour ribbon I would like. I felt small. My brother, however, talked to her and she had to change a few things. I bet on the inside, she was thinking about all the work that she had to do. I would never go there again. I was definitely disappointed and I have no idea how it turned out to be RM 20 when 1 stalk is just RM 2.50. Since we bought 3 stalks, it would be RM 7.50. Okay, so, there's one plastic wrapper and one plastic ribbon. Could those two and the effort in wrapping it be RM 12.50? That's just insane. Seriously.

Just in case you were wondering where it is, it's the only flower shop in Jaya 33.

On the second day, the flowers nearly died because my mum forgotten to put it in a vase and so, I did. It's going to be the 4th day now and I could say that 2 stalks are doing well and blooming nicely. But the other one doesn't seem like it's going to make it. It's just hanging on. I thought to myself that if no one bought that flower, then, it's a pity. No one would appreciate its beauty when it's about to wilt. Some people probably would think that I'm mad to treat flowers as if they have feelings but that is how I'd like to think about things. It makes me appreciate what I have.

Update

Well, it is the exam period which would explain why the decrease in updates.

This week has been an interesting week besides the fact that it is the 5th week for GIT and lectures are coming to an end soon. I still fall asleep in class. I should never eat 1 hour before class starts and I learnt that I should nap for at least 30 minutes before lectures if I'm tired.

I had my contact lense made and collected them today. Some recognized me, some people didn't. It was interesting to see the different expressions. =) I still face the same problem which would be dry eyes. Perhaps, it is the air-cond. I don't feel any irritation for now since it's just day 1. Maybe after 14 days or something. I really do wonder for how long would I be able to stick to it. Would it just be for a week and then, it becomes a white elephant? I have no idea. But, I'm learning and trying to get used to it.

Finally, the Sem 2 EOS is over and while I was in that situation before, I could understand why they never go back and continue to stay in the library or why they still come to uni even though they don't have any classes. I remember that I was worried sick throughout the 2 weeks. I could not sleep in peace and I even had dreams of failing.

Am I stressed? Nope, I'm not. But, that does not mean that I am ready or confident. It just means that there is no point in stressing when it might just make things worse. So, I'm still taking it slowly and hoping that I'll find the time to revise for the 2nd and hopefully 3rd time. It's all about hope! Jae Ric and Joo Hor have been great study companions although we sit far apart sometimes.

Earlier this evening, I was talking to Leon about making educational bread. We can make OBA as such that the first bite you take is the question and you make your decision. Then, by biting, different parts of the bread, you answer the question. If you're wrong, then, try again! Perhaps, educational bread could be made in a way that there are notes on the bread. For that to happen, there has got to be a large piece so that sufficient important points can be 'written'. Leon said that I was expressing my stress in a different way. I just thought that it would be interesting. If you have education games, tv shows, books, toys, why not food? There's already the fortune cookie. Perhaps, an educational fortune cookie could be made. :D

Just a point that I'm making to those who read what I wrote, I'm not a nerd although I sound like one. :)

Saturday, May 09, 2009

'My sister...'

I met a 5 year old girl today along with her maid who was carrying her younger sister, 4 months. She is so sweet and her sister is so cute. I've never seen her before and just before the elevator reached the Ground Floor, she told me...

My sister can smile.
My sister can talk.
My sister can laugh.
My sister can roll on the floor.
My sister is pretty.

She made my day. She loves her sister! ^^

Friday, May 08, 2009

'emotion'-penia

it's been a couple of days. sometimes, its good to have space but sometimes, i fear the drift. i miss the company, yet, i dislike the ideas. i miss the presence, yet, i fear the boredom. i miss the talks and everything else. but overall, i'm glad. if everyone's well off, then, i'm okay too.

i'm not depressed or anything. i'm just 'emotion'-penia. i still laugh, still cheerful, and make silly childish looks. perhaps, it is the stress. perhaps, it's not.

i needed direction. i needed concentration. but now, it's both and strength that i need.

space, in the end, it's a relative thing. what happens when there's too much or too little? when too much, then, things are taken for granted. if too little, then, there's an uncomfortable feeling. how much is just nice?

space...emotions... they are related in one way or another.

Thursday, May 07, 2009

"Interesting" CSU

In case you were wondering how my CSU went, it was interesting and traumatising. I managed to practise the procedures for digital rectal examination. I don't know why it's called that way but yes, I did it on a model.

Two videos were shown and the doctors in the video did it on a living person. I guess it was not that bad. It's just that I'm not used to seeing people naked below the waist. Why did I mention doctors instead of doctor? That's because the other video was on hernia examination. There were 6 cases and most of it involves inguinal hernia.

For me, it was 20 minutes of the male genitalia of which I felt traumatising afterwards because of the way the doctor in the video handled it. I just did not expect to see the guy holding someone else's 'balls' and 'bounce' it a little to show how it can be weighed and compared.

There were also cases where the man's genitalia had to be partially amputated of which reconstructive surgery was done for external meatus (I think), the orifice of the genitalia was inflamed, swollen testicles etc.

Anyway, I should be studying but I can't because I'm too tired to do anything even when I have enough sleep etc. I've been sleeping too much.

1 2 3 4 by Plain White T's

I was driving back today and when I turned on the radio, I heard the song '1 2 3 4' by Plain White-Ts. I was in love with the song after listening to it. It's definitely a song with lots of feelings in it. =D

1 2 3 4 by Plain White T's

1 2, 1 2 3 4-
Give me more lovin' than I've ever had,
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad,
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not,
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Barely gettin' mad,
I'm so glad I found you; I love bein' around you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-(I love you)
I love you.

Give me more lovin' from the very start,
Piece me back together when I fall apart,
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends-
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Best that I've had,
I'm so glad I found you, I love bein' around you.
[1, 2, 3, 4 mp3 on http://top10mp3download.blogpsot.com ]

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do- (I love you)
I love you.
(I love you) I love you.

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-(I love you)
I love you.

Sunday, May 03, 2009

Still chilling

I did not nerdify Bob although those are my things. And why is my watch there? It's supposedly an accessory.

I've been chilling way too much. I'm still not in the mood to study intensively nor excessively yet. Sleeping a lot has been nice. ^^ Nothing much has been going into my brain for GIT. This is not good.

Last week has been a great but hectic week. My group finished PBL 2 Week 4, PBL 1 Week 5 on Tuesday and PBL 2 Week 5, PBL 1 Week 6 on Wednesday. Really, it's not a good idea to do have PBL on the very next day.