Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Last day of the year...

... and I woke up at 11 to go to MidValley where I discovered Moof. I TOTALLY ADORE Moof.

It's either my phone or my laptop which is pms-ing because either ways, I can't transfer my pictures from phone to my laptop although the cable is correctly connected. I mean, I've done it dozens of times, how could this time be different from the previous?

Anyway, I spent a lot today on art stuff itself. Somehow, I have the feeling that it is all worth it. Better try now than never right?

Well, since it is the last day of the year, I'll just write a bit more about this crazy year. Thinking about it now, I think I'm more matured as compared to last year, less nerdier and more sociable. I remembering going to orientation with no intention or whatsoever to be involved in anything. But, I ended up having one of my greatest time spent there. Looking back at the orientation videos, I was pretty nervous and scared to act. Not to mention our super OOs who always crack jokes and help us through thick and thin... Gosh, they are the BEST! It's like a blink of an eye that my batch would be orientating the next intake. Sometimes, I am syok sendiri to want to be involved as a junior.

There were many times that I hesitated and wanted to quite in many events. There were many times that my temper would go off or the silent treatment comes on. For all that, I'm really glad I've found friends who could stand me. It's scary to think how much I've changed over the year. From nice to bad to nice to not-so-nice and till now, I'm still trying to be as nice as I can be. :) Sometimes, we get carried away without knowing it but it doesn't matter as long as you can find your way back and start over. There's no rule saying that you can't just turn over a new leaf like once in a year, right?

For all the stress that I went through, well, I knew that I wasn't the only one and I guess next year, I'll learn to channel it in a more optimistic way *hopefully* In Sem 1, I had a lot of break downs. LOL. It's normal. But thanks to a lot of people, I made it through emotionally at least... Teck Jian, Ghi Waie, Elizabeth, Kor Woi, Chin Nam, Keili, Sabrina, Reza... Thanks for the Q&A back then and the encouraging messages. Thanks for cracking jokes when I was like freaking stressed. Haha. In Sem 2, more sociable. I guess that's because I found a new group of friends where I fit into. Less crying, more laughing but took a big risk. Crying moments are embarassing, I would know, but it sometimes just takes everything else away and you'll start anew.

Why is 2008 different from 2007 or previous years? [embarrassing, funny, syok sendiri, O.o]

1. I got my license and drove by myself to uni ONCE!
2. I had 2 car accidents within the 1st month I got my license.
3. I actually went out with my friends for ice-skating and movies for more than 3 times. Last year, I only went out once. XD
4. I made crunchy corn with Faye and it was edible to sell. It wasn't really a success though. Baking was a better way to raise funds. hehe.
5. I felt two earthquakes at where I am staying.
6. I watched more horror movies this year- zombies, vampires, ghosts.
7. I wore dresses to class and wore high heels.
8. I'm not afraid of dentists anymore!
9. I joined my first dance competition ever and there were many memories. :) :) :)
10. I screamed in front of my batchmates in the auditorium as a result of being poked.

I guess, that's all for now. Perhaps I'll blog more later tonight... or maybe not...

Monday, December 29, 2008

OBLE's tag

OMG, this is one long tag. T.T But, I'm changing the rules because there is no rule about no rule-changing. ^^

Title: Game of Happiness

The rules:

  1. Answer the following questions and post it on your blog.
  2. At the end of the questionnaire, add a question that you want to ask.
  3. Then tag 10 person, you can tag someone who has already been tagged ---- thanks to this rule :)
  4. You have to inform the person that you tagged.
  5. Tell the person who tagged you that you have completed the questionnaire after completion
  6. Do not ignore the tag, or you happiness will be gone! [You can ignore the tag... if you really don't want to do it.]

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1. My name: Esther Teoh
2. My birthday: 5th of October
3. Who tagged you: Oble
4. Name five best buddies: Jeremy, Jae Ric, Chia Sin, Benedict, Teck Jian
6. Your most desirable birthday present: It varies every year. But, what I desire is what I usually give away or what my brother does for his gf. Now, sometimes, I wonder why he doesn't do it for me. >.< style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">A recent happy moment: Going online after 1 week.
8. Recently stressed about?: Not stressed anymore. I'm learning to channel my stress in a different way. I hope it works.
9. What would you want to do in the future: Be someone who contributes to society in various ways.
10. Do you have someone that you like?: Eh, a similar question to the previous tag... Same answer though ^^ Go figure...
11. Would you invite your teachers for gatherings?: I copy OBLE's answer! If they're close to me, then, I would too...!
12. With who do you feel the happiest when you go out?: Mum, some friends...
13. When two good friends of yours quarrel, you would: listen, and hopefully, they'll figure out what they want.
14. Where would you like to go the most with your lover: somewhere peaceful to spend the time.
15. What do you want to do on Christmas: I'd like to very much, meet up with my friends but I don't mind spending time with family either...
16. Who do you want to be with on Christmas: Family and friends!
17. Do you have morning grumpiness: Sometimes, it depends... I'm sure you've heard of PMS.
18. How many siblings do you have: 1 elder brother... :D
19. Favourite song (female singer(s)): Ran- I Love You [Korean Song]
20. Favourite song (male singer(s)): V.O.S- Beautiful life [Korean Song]
21. Favourite colour: PURPLE!!!
22. Do you flush after using the toilet: Yes
23. Do you love me?: uhh... *looks away*

The Tagged..

1. Jene
2. Keili
3. Yen Haw
4. Ickes
5. Jin Lin
6. Sabrina Ong
7. Faye
8. Rudy
9. Joon Heng
10. Chong Bing


01- Does no.4 know no.6: Yes
02- Is no.10 a guy or a girl: Guy
03- No.8's interest is: music
04- Does no.1 have any siblings: Yes, I think
05- No.7's surname: Lim
06- Is no.10's relationship with people good?: I guess it is...
07- Is someone after no.4?: I have no idea. LOL
08- How about no.2?: She's taken. :)
09- What is no.6's favourite colour: No idea.....
10- Are no.3 and no.10 friends?: I don't think they know each other.
11- No.8's birthday is on: I have no idea
12- Where is no.5 studying: IMU, Malaysia
13- How did you get to know no.10: A library furniture who I met in Sem 1.
14- How far apart is your birthday and no.1's birthday: don't know... :S
15- Have you gone out to play with no.9 before: No..
16- Do you like to chat with no.2: I don't mind.
17- Do you like being around no.3: I don't mind.
18- What do you think about no.7: She's one awesome girl.

[This just showed me how little I know about my friends. Oh well. There are 3 more semesters to know them better]

1. Who sent you this questionnaire: OBLE
2. How long have you known each other: 2 years
3. Do you think he(she) is important to you: err, not now. Back then, he was because I needed his help in Chemistry, Physics and Mathematics. hehe.
4. Your relationship with him(her)is: friend. nothing more. nothing less.
5. His(her) interest is: =.= err, girls? or guys? :P hehe, okay, I'm thinking guitar.
6. What do you think of his(her) personality: fun, cheerful, nerdy? (sorry, oble... my memories of you is like one year ago... haha)
7. How does he(she) score in your heart: I skip this question!
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*First thing you do before sleeping: think about the happy things
*First thing you do after waking up: think about what I need to do on that day
*Your idol is: don't really have one.
*Your favourite season: Spring and Autumn
*Have you worked before: No
*Number of times you have worked: 0
*Countries that you want to travel to: Countries in Europe
*What personality do you hate: no hating, only dislike. I've answered before in the other tag but I guess I'll add on... People who wants everyone else to listen and follow their way without ever listening to what others have to say.
*Do you smoke: No
*Do you drink: No
*Do you cry often: Not often. haha.
*Do you laugh often: Not often either, but I laugh more than being emo or cry.
*Where do you like to go to play: Play? Hmm, never really thought about this.
*Do you go alone when you go out to play: No.
*What is the latest time that you would wake up during holidays: 3pm
*Today's weather is (fine/gloomy/rainy): gloomy. So many dark clouds.
*Friends and lover, you would choose: if they're both my friends/lover, they wouldn't make me choose... I think...
*Chance and fate, you would choose: Chance =)
*Are you vain: I would think so sometimes, a bit...?? Do you think so?
*Have you punched ear hole(s) before: Yeah...
*Is this questionnaire long?: Yes... it is...
*How would you let yourself feel better: Korean music!
*Do you like ice-cream: Yeah.. :)
*Are you happy and blessed at the moment: Yes...!!!
*Which of your friends do you care the most: Haha, what do you think?
*What's the most important thing in the room: Bed... If no table, at least, can still nerd in the library...
*What do you frequently dream about: So many things! Uni, work, flying, disasters... :S
*Would you forgive a guy thinking of someone else?: Yeah. Unless he is special someone, then, as long as he still thinks of me and is true to me, then, it is up to his conscience which tells him if it's right or not. But, I will forgive.
*What do you think the meaning of living is: Being content and giving my all in what I love doing.

Additional section from OBLE which you don't need to answer...

Question: Let's all find out the who the creator is and murder him, shall we? :)

Answer: Haha, Oble, let me know when you find him, okay?

Keili's Tag

1. who are your beloved?
My family and cloes friends.

2. what is the thing you want most now?
I want my backache to go away... :(

3. what are the goals you want to achieve in?
There are many things. :) To sum it, it's being an all-rounder.

4. what are you afraid to lose?
Many things that I hold dear. Family, friends, memories, sentimental things etc.

5. if you have one more wish to wish for, what will it be?
I wish this world would heal. Environmentally, economically, politically, socially etc. I just want a better place for people to live in with less hate, crime, poverty etc.

6. do you believe in eternal love?
I thought I've answered this before in my previous tag.

7. if you met someone you love a lot, will you confess to him/her?
I don't know. I've been trying to figure out and often, I would but you know, insanity is doing the same things over and over again, yet expecting different results. So, for now, I would say, no.

8. what would you do with 200 bucks?
I'll save it! For the rainy days... Saving is a good thing after all, right?

9. what are your favourite colours?
Purple (lilac especially), Maroon, Dark Pink, Orange...

10. what type of people you hate most?
I try not to hate. At most, I just dislike and I usually try to not dislike. So, I suppose, it's people who are two-faced or pretenders.

11. which country do you want to go now?
Now, none. But in future, I'd like to go to Australia.

12. who makes you laugh?
My brother, Benedict, Teck Jian.

13. what skill(s) would you like to learn had you have the chance?
Cooking, playing a musical instrument.

14. what do you want your friendship to be like?
True and understanding. Does that make sense?

15. your horoscope is?
Libra... ^^ Always trying to keep a balance...

16. do you like eating paos?
YES. Lotus paste pau and Tai Pau. :)

17. do you like anyone now?
^^ Go figure.

18. who would you spend your day with if this your last day?
Family and good friends! No differentials. I want to spend time with everyone but more, with my family.

19. are you in a relationship now?
Yes, we all have more than one relationship, don't you think? With God, with our parents, siblings... Haha, okay, seriously, nah...

20. do you want to eat some sushi NOW?
I wouldn't mind. :)

Instruction: Remove 1 question from above and add in your personal question. Make it a total of 20 question, then tag 7 people in your list. list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their tagboard that they have been tagged. Whoever does this tag will get a BLESSING from all :)

I TAG:

Jene
Teddy
Oble
Joanne
Paik Yen
Nicole
Lilian

Back!!

I'm so back. I'm glad to be back. You have no idea how glad I am. Okay, maybe my brother would know. I miss my desk, books (okay, now I sound like a nerd, but don't the look of your books give you a comforting look?), wall, chair!!!, erm... INTERNET, HEATER and... and... everything else that matters.

I don't have a lot to update about Penang actually because it was just a hometown visit. I know it's weird to say this but I think I kind of got sick of eating over there. I mean like, every day, it's just eating. Going places to eat food. Why? Because I have nothing better to do. Like seriously, besides watching dramas and movies, there really isn't anything else to do.

Besides, I didn't want to spend so much on my phone. Mum's been complaining that my phone bill has been quite high just last month. :S *gulp* Sometimes, I think that I can't survive not talking but when I call up my friends, there isn't anything to talk about. But sometimes, I'm glad when a couple of friends call me to update me about their lives. It's really nice to hear from friends especially during the holidays, don't you think so?

Anyway, [got a little drifted] back to food. Food is cheap as we all know in Bukit Mertajam. You can be full from eating the portion that is served for a price that is 1/2 of KL's. I wonder how it is in other states. In Ipoh, it is cheaper too but then, the price is going to be like KL's soon. How can I not get fat? All the effort of wanting to lose some kgs just went down the drain and I've gained back a little. Looks like I have 1 week left before uni starts to do something about it.

How was Christmas? I went to Penang island on Christmas. Walked in 2 malls and did just window shopping for clothes but not for accessories. I TOTALLY HEART my mum for buying things for me and being patient with me. So, all in all, I managed to keep myself occupied for a week. :) That's also because there's a new Jusco and Sunway Carnival Mall where I can 'walk-walk'. ^^

Okay, now... to do the overdued tags. :)

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Random day

It was difficult to walk but it got better. Back aches back... Camp was tiring and painful at some point sometimes. but what do I tell my friends, it's worth it... Why? Because, I didn't give up for God.

I guess I'm back to my schedule of waking up late and sleeping late. I should really change and I do but I find that I'm always out of time to do things. There are too many things to do before uni starts again. Small things which are part of my routine. As usual, I'm missing a few people, school, everything else.

I was watching a movie 'Definitely, Maybe' today. It's a romantic comedy of how a father tells his daughter about his love life and she guesses which one is her mum. It is a complicated story all because of wrong timing. If it wasn't Ryan Reynolds who acted in it, I wouldn't continue watching it I guess. I used to like his movies. :) *Okay, I'm bias* While watching the movie, I was also packing my stuff AGAIN because I'm going back to Bukit Mertajam tomorrow. Hopefully, I can find internet to connect to.

Other than that, well, I clicked on 'Sync' in Itunes which I shouldn't have because I lost all my songs that I liked after that and was replaced by extra songs which I don't want them to be there. I know I have a lot of junk songs but I believe that the day would come where I want change and I might just listen to them. So, I spent the past hour editing the songs in itunes.

Before that, I was reading 'Tuesdays with Morrie' again. And I totally love it. Few years ago when I read it, I didn't feel what I felt today. So, it's learning all over again. I guess my favourite phrase from there is...

'Don't let go too soon, but don't hang on too long...'

Sounds emo, but very meaningful. In fact, there are many things to learn from Morrie. I took 2 days to read this book. It's not very thick. And since I was chatting with Yen Haw just now, both of us agreed to exchange books because he wants to read 'Tuesday with Morrie' while I want to read 'The 5 People You'll Meet In Heaven'. :D

After being away for 3 days, I "discovered" Apricot jam in the fridge today :D I think I had 4 pieces of cream crackers with it because there's no bread. I totally love love love it. That's like gonna be my favourite jam for now. *I'm beginning to sound bimbotic* Oh well... *smiles*

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Jamboree!

I reached the school at 10+am and was waiting for the others to arrive. I wanted to take more pictures but part of me was reluctant. In a way, I wasn't that eager to go for the camp. I felt like I've been forced though it was the other part of me which wanted to go. Have you ever gotten the feeling where you don't feel like doing something but if you do it, you'll feel glad that you did it?

Well, I'm glad I went for the jamboree. It was different from previous years. They were much lenient and it's not them who gives the training, but it depends on yourself if you want to be trained or not. This year, they've limited the number of places, only 110+ youths came. I guess that's because Sabah and Sarawak didn't join us. It's been a long time since I remember them joining us. Probably the flight ticket is one thing.

Anyway, do you see the pavement which is like an 'L' shaped? Well, we had most of our drills and march there which was so so so so FUN! The keyword for the first day was 'Energetic' while the second day was 'Enthusiastic'. So whenever they ask 'How are you feeling today?' We had to answer with energy, 'WE'RE ENERGETIC!!!' Even though it seemed pretty awkward at first but once I got into the mood, I really liked the activities. I know that I nearly gave up but I just kept on going. Like how my friend said, 'die die also must do. after that only see what happens.'

This is the canteen where we had our meals. duh. While one shotai which consists of 3 buntai-s (groups) goes in to shower, the other shotai will have their meals. The average time for shower was 5 minutes ^^ THAT was training! It's possible but just got to presevere because it's only 2 days. Meals? It was okay, can't complain. I remember that in every meal, we would eat in 10 minutes but then, we were told to finish our meal in 1 hour for lunch on the second day. Otherwise, we would be given more food. Although more food is a good thing, but the main objective and challenge was to finish our food in one hour to learn to appreciate it more and taste every grain of rice or corn. Oh, they gave us fried rice.

It was hard for me but I was one of the last ones to finish. Even so, I took about 30-40 minutes. And no, I did not wait for 5 minutes after each spoon. It was a continuous process. So, I chewed about 15-25 times per spoon (not full). Besides, it's also good for digestion, isn't it? ;) At least, I know that I won't be constipated after 3 days or so. hehe. God is good to have arranged such activities for us. :)

Well, for this picture, I don't know how what to say. Uhh, it leads to the male and female dorms. There are only 2 rooms for females and males. And each room is shared by 3 groups/1 shotai. In the room I was in, there were 27 other people. Yeap, it was a little cramp but thanks to my friend, I got the wall, so, I avoided kicking other people. I had troubles sleeping on the 1st night because I usually sleep at 3 something in the morning and I had to sleep before 1am. =.= I kept waking up whenever someone makes a noise because I was afraid that there would be an emergency training such as fire or something.

They did it last year and woke us up at 3+am. It could happen. So, I learnt to be alert and prepared then. The space you see in the picture was also where 'Cohesion Night' was held. We acted there. I don't do well in acting but in every one, there is potential. I got a musical play to the song 'Hakuna Matata'. Not in the picture is the hall but its continuous from that building. It is where most of the activities were held. I could sleep very well on the 2nd night after all the drills.

From left, Amanda, Lu Tsing, Me and Wai Ting. Lu Tsing and I had a lot of things to catch up with after so many years. We talked a lot even before the jamboree officially started. XD I've known her for about 7 years now. I remember how cloes we used to be during jamboree. I counted on her a lot in going anywhere because back then, I had not the guts to do things alone. haha. shy mah. But till now, she still knows how naughty I can be. XD

Here's another picture, also before it began officially. From left, Sayaka, Wai Ting and me. We were watching the guys playing football which was already there. Why only pictures before? Well, I gave my cellphone to them to keep it for a couple of days. It was part of training as well to focus better and instead of thinking of who messaged or called or whatever, the mind would be occupied on other things such as self-reflection.

At the end of the day, I learnt a few new things about myself, set goals for next year etc. It was a motivating one. Yeap, and I totally miss my mum's home cook meals!

Friday, December 19, 2008

Still packing

I believe it's the last minute packing and making sure that I have everything with me. I feel like bringing a small pillow but I don't have space to put it. My travelling bag which is big enough yet small is full and it's only 2 nights. I can survive.

I think I'm going to be screwed because I can't fall asleep before 1am and wake up by 6am. =.= Last night, I slept at 3am and woke up at 7am. Just 4 hours but it should be sufficient for a couple of days.

Okay then, that's all I can update because I gotta go... Bye guys... :( Bye bloggie!! *Only part for more than 1 day*

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Tagged by Keili

Don't call me crazy to write three post in a day. After all, they're at different times of the day. It's not my first to blog this much. Anyway, Keili tagged me and I thought that it's best to not leave any tags hanging for more than a week plus or so... So here it goes. Only 20 questions.. :)

1. What's your ambition?

My ambition. I remember writing this a lot when I was a kid. Back then, it was always 'Saya bercita-cita untuk menjadi seorang doktor.' Until now, it's still my ambition. Of course, this can be viewed from a different point and I think in general, it's to be satisfied and content with what I've done and by that it is giving my best in doing what I like most.

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
If both are my friend and boyfriend, they wouldn't ask me this because they probably would have a tough time making a decision too. After all, to have a boyfriend, he would first be my friend.

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
Not all the time... Haha, what's that answer supposed to mean? Something.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?

Depends on what I'm doing and where I am. In some areas of my life, I lack the confidence but in other parts, I am confident to carry out myself because I'm only confident when I'm sure about what I know or what I want.

5. How many babies do you want?

I think 2 if that's possible. I'll probably rethink this in future...

6. Favourite perfume/fragrance?

Don't have one because I don't really use it. I'm still looking for something that I like but I haven't really found one yet or maybe because I don't spend that much time searching for one. It's tough making the decision alone, you know.

7. What do you think will be your greatest downfall?

Greatest downfall... Must be the steps in IMU, around 2-3 steps. I usually fall on flat ground. but that's the greatest so far.

Haha. Seriously, there was no greatest downfall for me. But there were black marks in my history of school life which I wouldn't like to recall.

8. Do you believe in eternal love?

In love, I believe it's true. But everlasting, it's probably possible if one is really devoted... for God and Him for us... I think.

9. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend to you?

Gosh, this question. I'm lazy to answer because it's not just one criteria but there are many factors. There's only one person who knows the answer so far. =)

10. What are your bad habits?
Being paranoid unknowingly. Losing my patience or temper on days where I'm not in the mood to do anything when forced to go along.

11. Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?
Hate me, but tell me why after you really get to know me and after you give me the chance to know you as well.

12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Honestly, I don't but I try to. Close ones are held dear to me.

13. What do you hate most in others?

Can't think of one right now.

14. What do you crave for the most currently?
*Secret* *Smiles sheepishly* What do you think? [I'm not gonna answer if it's right or not]

15. What features/quirks do you find totally sexy on a guy/girl?
Haha, not gonna answer this either. Personal thoughts are best kept to myself. *winks*

16. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
Dental student, blogger, pretty, petite and cheerful.

17. What have you done to yourself to make yourself feel happy?
Eating Oreo's, Nougats and hearing a few familiar voices.

18. What would you become in another 10 years to come?
When I'm 29, I can't exactly know what I would be but I'd like to be someone with a stable career and manage to get into a Postgraduate program, at the same time, be with someone special.

19. What's your guilty pleasure?
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20. I tag:


JENE! muahahaha *I don't know why the evil laugh came out*
Lilian =)
Kar Men :D
Chong Bing [You can do after your exams ^^]
Gene-Harn *lalala*

My wall.

These are what I put on my wall...

It started out with an empty green board with ribbons forming the diamond shapes. It was made by my brother's friend. She was a creative person. It was given to me last Christmas. Initially, it was to put important notes but since I hardly do so, I ended up putting bits and pieces of memories on it. :) They will be there until I get a box to keep them together.

Isn't it nice to have box full of memories from different time of your life? I have another one which has all the my letters and pictures from primary to secondary school. :)

One more thing on my wall is this...It usually gives me the motivation to study better. But, since I hardly study at home, it kind of defeated the purpose. But then again, who knows? Perhaps in Sem 3, I'll somehow find the time to sit at my table and really study (instead of getting hooked to my lappy).
Do you put anything on your wall?

My phone revived =)

Nurse: There's no pulse. Doctor, would you call it now?
Doctor: Day of death, 26th August 2008.

*few months later*

Nurse: Doctor, something is weird about this. Would you check this out again?
Doctor: Sure... *gasps!* We have a pulse!

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Okay, it's lame. But that's my lameness that no one else can copy... :) Do you still remember when I wrote about my phone which couldn't be used at all after dropping it so many times? If you don't, you can read about it here.

Anyway, just last week, I finally sent it in for repair but not at a the Samsung Service center because it was much more expensive. I went to Pearl Point instead. The lady told me that it'll take around 5 days to find out what's wrong and probably a couple more days for the repair. But guess what, both processes took less than 5 days.

When I got it back, I was quite content. Everything seems brand new to me. There wasn't any data lost which means I have my phonebook back! =)

I bet you don't have the same colour as mine. If you do, I'm sure it took quite a long time before it looked like this.

The problem before:

1. Inverted screen
2. Colour went hay-wired
3. Can't call nor receive calls
4. Once switched off (for the last time), it couldn't be turned back on

What was changed:

1. Ribbon (that's what I heard)
2. Display board

So, I finally have another alternative camera.

I'm going to treasure this phone a lot this time and try to not drop it. :)

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Handmade Box ^^

When I woke up this morning, I realised that I have cracked lips. =.= *Painful*

Last week, I was a little busy with making a box after making the bookmarks. Why did I make a box? I don't know. I figured it was a challenge since my aunt asked me to do so. The objective is to fit in 200 pieces of 50 cent coins. First thing was, how am I going to make a box? Making a thought into reality.

I started out with a sketch and a few calculations. All the memories from Form 4 and Form 5 started to kick in. Lucky thing, there was no need to calculate area or volume.

Canggih-looking, right? hehe.

So, after stacking up the coins, it looked something like this.


(Okay, now's the part where I show the picture of the boxes... ^^)

It was really heavy and I was afraid that the box won't be able to withstand the weight, so I added a box cardboard which is supernice to cut with a blade. :)



And there's me, attempting to cam-addict with my bro's phone. :)

Monday, December 15, 2008

How addicted are you to the internet?

It was a cold night. Blizzard cold. I had no idea what the temperature was but it was way colder than usual. Another night. Another weird dream and this time, I dreamt that my aunt was trying to learn parasitology and I was in some big time drama which landed me in jail. =.= Weird. I know.

Anyway, I thought that until the new semester starts, I will be chilling my way through but it seemed to be the other way around. I will be a little more occupied after end of this week which means I wouldn't have much time to update my blog because I wouldn't have internet!

The question is, how addicted are you to the internet? Do you think you can survive without the internet for more than 3 days if you're not involved in any activity (eg. camp, trip)? Let's say that there aren't any other sources of entertainment but you've got tonnes of dvds which you've already watched. Being a blogger, can you not blog for more than 3 days in a row? What is the maximum number of days can you stand not blogging? Being a blog surfer or like any other internet user, is it okay to not check Facebook or download stuff?

I am an addictive user and my brother would always tease me. Sometimes, he would say in a sarcastic tone 'I can't believe you survived without internet for 3 days!' =.=ll But really, in this era where technology is already playing such a big role, I think I can say that I can't survive without technology. Imagine no cellphones, no refridgerator, no elevators or escalators, no laptops, no softwares. Can you imagine the world without blogs...? :S

My imagination has roam too far. -.-

Saturday, December 13, 2008

He is not just someone...

Was it fate?

My dad brought him to our house. It was a Tuesday that I got to know him. And, it was that Tuesday night, that I knew him better. It wasn't love at first sight definitely... I thought he was a show off. But after one day, I guess, my heart slowly opened up to him.

He changed to suit my style. My brother helped all the way in changing him. I know how sometimes people would say that when you try to change someone, the feelings you have is not true...? But this time, he is not just someone... So, I made an exception. I wonder if he would be mad but I guess he doesn't mind because partly, he benefits from it as well.

By Wednesday, he knew all the songs that I listen to and he is knowledgable because he has all my lecture notes. He doesn't argue with me and he is constantly updated. ^^ Sometimes, I just think that he is trying too hard but then, if he doesn't, then, I'll probably get mad for getting into trouble. By Thursday, I showed him my pictures and I gave him my password... to Facebook, my Blog and a few other sites. What can I say? I have no secrets from him. :)

He seems perfect to me after all I've been through. Although I feel that he gives me electric shock once in while, but it's okay. Sometimes, I find him complicated. And sometimes, I'm afraid that he has problems but just isn't telling me. But otherwise, we're actually doing pretty good. He never seem to be jealous of any of the guys that I talk to. Not yet, at least... *chuckles*

Today, he was playing my favourite songs on my playlist. And, he is efficient in what he does. Doesn't he sound perfect to you? Well, his name is Lenovo and this is a picture of him...

Lenovo T61

^^ He's not a guy, but, I'm glad to have him. Did you seriously think I would fall for someone in just a day or two?

One thing I'm glad about is that this one has 4GB RAM. My previous one had 256MB but my first lappy served me well for more than 3 years.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Personalised Bookmarks

This is what that has been keeping me busy lately. I've been making bookmarks... :)

Depending on the design, I can fit a maximum of 8 letters. I'm still trying to think of new designs but I like the second one best because it also gives a Christmas-y feeling. I spent 1 day thinking of what to do and another day making it. The challenging part is the cutting. Letters with curves especially was a challenge such as S, Q, O, U, C, G and J. Why so? Well, it's because of the material. Unlike paper which is thin, this material is flexible and rubber-ish. The clothe on the other hand gives a nice feel but when cutting it, I have to estimate it. There's no way I can draw on it.

One thing I like about making it though is that it gives self-satisfaction after the work is done. It's like getting to give it your all in making it. :) :) :)

I'm wondering if I should sell bookmarks. Would I have the time to make it? What if I can't keep up with school work? I guess I would then have to figure it out when the time comes. I love making stuff. I've already have my next challenge and yeah... There has been a few changes and I'm loving the changes. :) Now, I've just got to get used to it. Until next time, do let me know what your opinion or thoughts are. :)

Monday, December 08, 2008

Of chatting and making decisions

Player 5150 is a movie that is too dull for me. When compared to 21, 21 is way way way way better.

I think I've finally reached the point of not knowing what to do. I'm just waiting to go for the jamboree on the 19-21st. I guess it's still too early to pack. Dad's finally coming back tomorrow from Durban. There is nothing for me to watch on tv besides Criminal Minds 3. Since Ghost Whisperer Season 3 ended, my Tuesday nights are spent on the laptop. I think I spend most of my time on my laptop... listening to music, playing games or chatting. But now, I'm cutting a lot on the chatting part.

Why? One reason is because I don't want to be addicted to chatting. I would say that chatting is time consuming and sometimes, you can go on and on and on for more than 2 hours without realising it. I know I've chatted starting at 11pm something until 3 something in the morning before. Sometimes, I find that there's nothing to chat about. So, why go online in the first place? But that's only what I think.

As I mentioned earlier, I have been watching Grey's Anatomy and there was this sentence which caught my attention and sounds something like this... 'There are no difficult decisions... Just painful ones.' Miranda Bailey said it to Dr. Shepherd when he had to decide on whether or not he wants to divorce his wife. Oh well, I guess it also appears in real life and if you realise it... Decisions really aren't difficult most of the time. If you find it difficult, it's because there is a possibility that someone might get hurt. Would it be ironic if I come to a conclusion that decisions are SOMETIMES painfully difficult?

I'm getting confused myself now... =.=

More Updates

THURSDAY, 4th December 08

I went to the Curve with Elvyna, Jae Ric and Jeremy. We watched Bolt and Body of Lies. It was a back to back movie sort of thing. Bold was actually pretty nice. It's about a dog who thinks that he is a superdog-hero sort of thing with his super bark and heat laser eyes which can make metal melt who then finds out that he's just an ordinary dog and learns to be a dog with the help of a cat. Also in the movie was a character called Rhino, a hamster who also believes that Bolt is a superdog. I'll give this movie an 8/10 because the ending was sort of predictable. As for Body of Lies, it's not exactly my type of movie but I watched it anyway. It was related to war, terrorists attacks, suicide bombers and involved the middle east countries. It was okay.

FRIDAY, 5th December 08

I went for another movie marathon with Arthur, Lydia and Jeremy. We watched Matrix 1, Matrix 3, One Missed Call and Wall E. Matrix 2 couldn't be played, so we watched other movies instead. As usual, Matrix isn't my type of movie either but the first one was good. I didn't quite like the 3rd one. I guess I don't like too much graphics. One Missed Call was a little scary in the beginning and towards the end, it was definitely scary. Who would ever thought that everything that happened was caused by a little girl who held grudges? That is definitely not a pleasant feeling. The last movie we watched which was Wall E was the best for me. It's so cute and funny.

When I told Teck Jian about it, he said that it's a good movie because it gives hope to guys who don't have a chance to keep on trying and in the end, they will make it. =.=ll Oh well, that is partially true. It's so sweet how Wall E takes care and protects Eva after she had the plant. The lightning bolts, the attempts to hold her hand and bring her back to life by shocking her. Then, when she was sent for diagnostics, he misunderstood it for something else and fought hard for her. Some parts were kind of sad and touching. Some parts were funny like how Wall E accidentally squishes his pet/friend, the cockroach and freaks out.

SATURDAY, 6th December 08

Finally, some peace at home and time for myself. I did more house chores today and cleaned up here and there. I thought about the songs I heard in Jae Ric's car. Westlife's latest album which was released last year. I think I'll probably write about it after I get hold of the full album. Sleep has been doing me good. No more bad dreams. No more memories about the dreams. Just pure sleep. :) I'm glad about it. What's changed? I don't know. But, I do have problems falling asleep. I also started on Grey's Anatomy marathon as well, starting from Season 1. ^^ And, I'm getting addicted to Spider Solitaire. o.O

SUNDAY, 7th December 08


Woke up at 10 am to help my aunt with some housework and went back to sleep at 11 something just to wake up at 2.30pm. I like slacking. There's nothing to be worried about. After all, I did sleep at 5 something on the day before.

Somehow, I just had the feeling like I have a lot of things to do but I'm just not doing it. I know I've been wasting time. That's not a good thing. The news have been showing landslides which has claimed lives. It got me thinking once again which I've thought about before and that is... If today's your last day, what would you do? If it's me, I would like to talk and tell people something about them which I have always thought was nice/unique/a secret/something. But, I haven't exactly been doing that. In fact, I think I'm taking life for granted. *sigh*

Have you called [a] friend(s) today to talk to your friend(s) about some thing(s)? For some friends, I have. As for the others, I haven't. Yet, I'm still keeping contact with most. Sometimes, it would be nice to get a call from a friend who you haven't been talking to in a while. Sometimes, it's also nice to talk to a friend who although you chat with online everyday, talking on the phone also can cheer you up a little. Have you ever thought about how important a phone call can mean to someone? Interesting, isn't it? *smiles*

Anyway, today seemed more productive compared to other days. I'm still on the Grey's Marathon and I'm watching Season 2 already. I think I'll be rewatching Tru Calling or something. I'm turning into an obsessive compulsive teenager who is ranting and rambling a lot. =.= But, what am I to do?

Sunday, December 07, 2008

This song stuck in my head...

It's 3.38am and I still can't sleep. There's a song which I've been listening to since 2 days ago as well as other emo songs. Am I emo? I don't think I am but someone thinks I am. I guess I'd just want to really post this lyrics up... I have been wanting to blog about the movie marathon and all but I guess, I'll save it for later which is after the sleep. Falling asleep is not easy unless I'm really really exhausted.

29 more days to go before uni starts again. I am yet to pay my fees. *sigh* Anyway, here's the song... I'll post something else tomorrow. It's a promise! ^^

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Title: Ku Katakan Dengan Indah by Peter Pan

Ku katakan dengan indah,
dengan terbuka,
hati ku hampa
Sepertinya luka,
menghampirinya

Kau beri rasa,
yang berbeda,
mungkin ku salah,
mengartikannya,
yang ku rasa cinta

Tetapi hati ku,
selalu meninggikan mu,
terlalu meninggikan mu,
selalu meninggikan mu

[Chorus]
Kau hancurkan hati ku, hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hati ku, ‘tuk melihat mu
Kau terangi jiwa ku, kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan, hati ku, ‘tuk melihat mu

Tetapi hati ku,
selalu meninggikan mu,
terlalu meninggikan mu,
selalu meninggikan mu

Membuat ku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
Membuat ku merasakan yang t’lah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa ku akhiri

Kau buat ku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
Kau buat ku merasakan yang t’lah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa ku akhiri

Tetapi hati ku,
selalu meninggikan mu,
terlalu meninggikan mu,
selalu meninggikan mu...

Kau hancurkan hati ku, tak tertahan lagi
Kau hancurkan hati ku, ‘tuk melihat mu
Kau terangi jiwa ku, kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hati ku, ‘tuk melihat mu

[Chorus]

(kau hancurkan hati ku, hancurkan lagi)
(kau hancurkan hati ku, tuk melihat mu)

[Chorus]

Ohhh… Hooo~oooo… Ooouu…
Melihatmu…

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You know, when I first heard the song, what I heard was different from the liriks that I found. I guess that's normal sometimes because the words couldn't be heard clearly and it's Indonesian which varies slightly from Malay. Nevertheless, this song is in my favourites now...

Thursday, December 04, 2008

Agape..

Yesterday, I went for the Xmas Celeb. My overall comment is that it was really good. The skits. The dance. The singing. And there was a speaker who I found to be inspirational in a way. ;) The theme for this year is 'Agape' which means Unconditional Love.

The ME208s are very enthusiastic and they also do a good job. Joash and Elizabeth were the MCs. They started off by singing a duet with Joash playing the piano. After their opening 'speech', Natasha and Elvyna sang a few songs with 4 other guys in the band. Kay Teck was one of them who played the guitar.

The drama was quite an enjoyable one as well. The story line was good and so were the actors who were spontaneous in a way because when compared to the rehersal, the lines were sort of different from during the actual play itself. The story was about a father (Jeremy) trying to explain to his daughter (Erin) about unconditional love by asking her if the various scenes are love or not. Erin was really really cute. Elvyna and Wei Chin agrees too.

The first scene was between two friends who are the best-est friends of all and the planned to join the Amazing Race together. The girl was to bring about a tomboy role. 5 years later, she decides that she doesn't want to partner her friend for the race as she claims that he (Mark) is too girly. The second scene shown was between a couple of which the boyfriend was drunk and insisted to drive but in the end met with an accident. The girlfriend had reconstructive surgery and asked him if he still loves her but he couldn't tell it straight to her face. This scene was especially funny because of twitch. The wife after surgery (Kuhanesh) was more manly than the husband.

The third scene was about two parents who love their son a lot and spent a lot of money on his tuition. They talked about how to bring back more money to support the family. Then, their son comes in and asked for RM200 with the reason that he needs extra tuition. 5 hours later, when his mum called, he was actually in the club. The song played: Womanizer. It was funny as well when his mum tried explained to his father about the noise she hears when she called. That love was more of a conditioned love because the parents expect something in return from their son which is to take care of them when they grow old.

The fourth which is SOMETHING like unconditional love was between two identical twins of how one is willing to die for the other who had stirred trouble by killing the mafia's boss' son. It was kind of emo when Joash added the background music. So yeah... then, the scene came again of how the father explained that there's only one man who showed his unconditional love by dying for people who hated him, who tried to kill him, who he didn't know to save the human race. And Christians celebrate Christmas as it is the day Jesus was born.

Honestly, I don't think I would know so much about Christmas until yesterday. So, another good experience and good memory saved. ^^

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

'I made it. I'm stepping on ground.'

My mum said that I could drive to uni on my own today. Well, I had a few things to settle and I was going to lepak there or do something. And so, I did. I was walking towards the car with mixed feelings. I was excited, happy, scared and nervous. I started the engine and checked that everything was okay. The mirrors. The doors. Music? Must have. If there's no music, I'll be more nervous.

I drove down the slope slowly. I needed sometime to set to the 'serious' mode in driving. After making the first turn at the traffic light, I thought, 'Hmm.. Maybe 30km/h is a little too slow. I think I should speed up a bit.' I went until 50km/h and I saw the police. The first thing that came to my mind was 'Did I exceed the speed limit?' 50km/h seems reasonable. It should be okay. XD The traffic lights were green all the way, so, I didn't have much of a problem.

When I reached uni, I should have taken a left, or go straight but instead, I took a right. I passed IMU and I was like 'Uh-oh... So.. umm.. where should I find parking?' I couldn't make any U-turns or 3-Point turns because there were so many cars behind me and there were also many cars coming from the opposite direction. I stopped at the side. I figured, 'Hey, the road is wide enough for a U-turn or 3-point turn. Okay, I shall give it a try when there is no cars. I hope it works because I have no idea of where to go from there.' I wasn't familiar with the place. I've passed it a couple of times but it wasn't easy for me.

I made a U-turn and drove back to IMU. I made a right turn into the road between Vista B and C, B-C, as Elvyna would call it. There was enough space for me to side park and so, I side parked! Wayyyy in front of Jae Ric's car. XD *Phew* What a relieve it was for me. When I got down the car, my limbs were like jelly. It gave me the feeling when I first drove in my first driving lesson. The feeling of 'I made it. I'm stepping on ground.'

So, I made my way to the entrance of IMU and I saw someone dancing in the atrium. It was Kor Woi. Haha. The first thing that I did was I held my car keys in front of him and he was just as excited as me. He asked, 'Yunn Pei! You drove here?' Haha. I think I started speaking gibberish for a while before I came to my senses that everything is okay. I'm feeling good. Made my way to settle my things before ending up in the student lounge where I saw Kor Woi, Elvyna, JJ and Jae Ric.

Then, we talked and talked and talked... JJ just had to say 'No wonder I felt the coldness... I feel for the people on the roads.' =.=ll [Man, I drive really safely okay. You'll know if you ever have the guts to sit beside me in MY CAR with ME DRIVING. >.<> On the way back, I walked with Elvyna, across the road and to my car. I was less nervous and yeap, drove back safely. XD

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Ladidudida...

As you can see from my title, I'm getting bored but I'm not complaining about the boredom. I totally love the fact that I still have nothing to do and nothing to worry about for now. :) My internet connection is still pms-ing. I think I'm going to have writer's block soon. :S Well, I've been to MidValley yesterday and 1 Utama today. I'll be going to Sunway Pyramid tomorrow.

I've finally watched Iron Man and The Mummy- Tomb of the Dragon Emperor. Call me slow, but hey, I didn't have the time then but I have the time now. I've also been filling up my days with Season 5 of House and Grey's Anatomy. Yes, I still do follow the series. I'm still awaiting Season 2 of Private Practice and Season 3 Heroes Episode 11! I'm waiting to watch Pulse and Pulse 2. I have 3 more episodes of Season 2 Supernatural to watch. I haven't watch The Dark Knight. Yeap, I haven't.

Have you been keeping in touch with your friends? I think I talk to the same people nearly everyday. I started asking myself...What if I stopped messaging them to ask about how their days have been? What if I just finally decided to disappear for awhile? Would there be a difference? Well, I asked Chia Sin about that and she told me that she wouldn't worry about it because if I'm updating my blog, it means I'm okay. haha. Well, how about those who don't read my blog? Would it matter? Still, it is a question that you can ask yourself... Would you know that something had happened to you friend? *touchwood touchwood*

Still, I wonder how everyone is doing. I called Ben the other day and was asking what he was up to. The usuals.

Me: It's good to know that you're still here and not disappeared.
Ben: I wanted to...
Me: Then, why not?
Ben: Oh, cos my mum don't let.
*paused*
Me: *laughing hysterically on the phone*
Ben: Hey... Don't give me that laugh.. >.<
Me: ^^

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Sales. Fitting rooms. Patience.

I came across an article. I Wanna Hold Your Hand. It's interesting sometimes, how something that is small to you may be something that is big to another person.

Anyway, I went to MidValley today and as most of you guys have noticed, the Sales has started. Up to 70% discount in most of the outlets, you'll see a river of people in shoe stores (nope, it hasn't reached an ocean). Want to know what I saw? I saw two men standing outside the shoe store and conversing in Cantonese. One of them were saying something like 'Look at all these women in one shoe store. Oh my goodness.' I was thinking, 'What do you expect? Shoes. Discounts. *knock knock*' I guess there were many people who were in a good mood for shopping.

I went to Metrojaya. I was looking for a pair of black pants which suits me nicely. I thought I found it and went to the fitting room. I saw a queue of people. Oh well, I'll just wait then. I was bored as well and so I looked at the clothes that this lady hanged over the door. Let's say 2 tops- A and B. Then, 2 pants- C and D. This was how she tried her clothes.

1. Own top + C
2. Own top + D
3. A + Own bottom
4. B + Own bottom
5. A + C
6. B + C
7. A + D
8. B + D

Then, I thought, *yay!* she has finished all the combinations that she could possibly think off. She's coming out now... I can have the fitting room now. ^^ But, nooo.... she was still in there rethinking and retrying her combinations. =.= I can't say 'Women... =.=' because I am one myself. So, what the heck? I went to another fitting room.

In front of me was a Malay girl with her mother. She only had 1 garment in her hand. So, I figured, she won't take long. My mum was waiting with me. Behind me, was another Malay lady. We stood there for a pretty long time as well. Long enough for us to (gossip) talk about the other ladies inside. :P Imagine this. 3 ladies commenting, laughing, and trying on each other's clothes. I found it inconsiderate because the queue was getting longer and they were practically hogging the fitting room.

I was still the 2nd in line. After another girl came out from the 2nd fitting room (well, there was only 2), I was the 1st in line. By the time I got out and the Malay lady behind me went in, the ladies were still in the fitting room. Still laughing. Still doing their own thing. I know it's not wrong if people just want to enjoy themselves... splurge on some items but is there ever a line that has to be drawn? I was just thinking about it. Is there anything that we could do such as knocking and telling them politely that there are a lot more people outside who are waiting to try their garments?

So, I guess during a Sale, you've just got to be more patient in everything including finding car parks and driving on the road. Patience truly is a virtue. I'll be going to 1 Utama tomorrow. I have no idea what I should expect but I hope it's not more waiting outside fitting rooms.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Freaky coincidence?

Have you ever dreamt about something which bothers you? What if you woke up and see the frontpage which seemed familiar?

Last night, I couldn't sleep well. I remember tossing and turning. I remember that I nearly fell off the bed. I even wondered when I woke up had there been an earthquake or something. But then, I went back to sleep and dreamt. It was not a very nice dream. I dreamt that I was attending a function and I was in this hotel. I dreamt that I was going to go back to my room but then, it was weird as I seemed to be stopping at nearly every floor.

There were people coming in and out of the elevator in their suits and badges. I didn't notice anything at first but as the elevator door opens, I'd see more people. More crowds and more blood. I thought it was a little weird at first. So, I decided to step out of the elevator and see what was going on. I was not horrified to see so many dead bodies. I don't know why. Was there a mass murder? Well, I have no idea but it did seem like it... I remember that I was even wearing formal clothes. For what purpose? I have no idea.

I got ready and drove my mum and aunt to the hospital. I messaged my friend and told him about the weird dream I had. Well, that's what I usually do anyway. Tell a friend or two about the weird dreams I have and then, try to forget about it. While waiting for them to get their check ups done, my aunt gave bought me the Star newspaper so that I wouldn't be bored. Something on the newspaper caught my attention. I wondered why would there be a big picture with dark backgrounds? Did something happen to the economy or something? I read the headlines 'Terror in Mumbai- At least 125 massacred, 300 hurt in attack by militants'.

The first thing that was in my head was 'What is going on in this world?' Hold on a second... A hotel... death... dead bodies? o.O Freaky coincidence because I thought I had a dream about something like this yesterday night.

Well, if it wasn't freaky for you, it was definitely freaky for me. Dreams are so complicated.

I do want to learn more about it one day... How do they come about and why? How is it that people can remember their dreams and that they can be coloured while some are in black and white? Is there a limit to how many dreams a person can dream and is there a way to prevent dreams from occuring? I guess these are questions which I'll answer if I have nothing to do during my free time... :]

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

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You're probably wondering where I've been. Why haven't I been updating?

Well, I will be very soon. I've been caught up with matters of my own and also have been watching some movies, and series but I wouldn't want to be writing movie reviews all the time, right? Perhaps, you could say that I'm waiting for something amazing to happen. Perhaps, you could say that I'm waiting for the right mood to settle in to write another blog post. Perhaps, I'm just waiting for the right thing to happen at the right time.

I don't know what I'm waiting for. But, I know I'm waiting for something. I'm just waiting... As weird as it may sound, but I guess that's it.

I will be updating this really soon. :]

Friday, November 21, 2008

'Quarantine'

I was out with my mum this morning. I drove to different places, side parked... Today's my second day driving without my mum telling me where to go and how to do it. It won't be long before I start driving alone to uni etc. *bangga* :D

So, today, I did go to uni to borrow a couple of books and I met up with Thomas, JJ and Ric. Then, we headed to MidValley to watch 'Quarantine', a horror zombie movie. :S A few years ago, I would never step into the cinema to watch a movie of this kind. Somehow, I decided to try again this year. Well, considering its genre, its a pretty good movie with continuous action that doesn't leave you wondering about what's coming next. I know that the guys were pretty cool about it. Some scenes were funny, some scenes were stupid, most of them were scary for me. Honestly, I did thought about leaving the cinema but before I knew it, it ended.

On one side, I'd hear laughter, on the other, a calm person just eating popcorn. And the person next to him? He'll be enjoying the shocking scenes, thrill and effects. As for me, I was fidgeting as usual. Yes, there were a couple of screams *looks away*, not a lot on adrenaline but a lot of shortness of breath. What's scary? It is the look that these people have, their eyes, teeth and behaviour. It is how one person spreads the infection to another. Another thing that is scary is the violence. I don't handle violence well. So, yeah, I was moving A LOT. And, I covered my eyes A LOT. But someone kept pushing my hands away so that I'll watch the whole movie.

What is this movie about? It's about a virus which infects all the residents in the building. It starts with one. Then, it spreads to another. Slowly, everyone is either infected, or dies in gruesome ways. There are many types of people of different age, nationality, jobs. If you decide to watch it, go with a group of friends and not just a couple.

This movie affected me a lot in how I think and see things. It has brought me to a few realisations, knowing more about what I fear and accepting the fact that some things are true while some aren't. You may say 'It's just a movie...' but it's not as simple as that because behind every movie, there is a message. This one doesn't say much about zombies but it tells of love... for a friend, a family member- daughter, father, dog... This one tells about life and death. For a medical student like me, it reminded me a lot about work: bronchitis, CDC, viruses and standard protocol for emergency treatment.

While we were on our way to MidValley, we talked about what we would want to specialize in. I said it's most probably going to be Paediatrics, Surgery or Psychiatry. During the movie, I was more terrified than ever to think about how I would handle myself had I been in the shoes of those researchers or doctors. But, what the heck... When the time comes, it'll come and hopefully, I'll know what to do then. So, after the movie, we went back to uni. I helped out in drawing and cutting snowflakes with this super cool gadget of which I do not know the name but it cuts polysterene. :)

Today was a sh*tty day for after the movie until a couple of minutes ago. (Mind you, I think I took quite a while before knowing what I want to write. It's 1.54am now.) I told Arthur that I couldn't think of happy things because all in my mind was morbid, death, blood, weird teeth/fangs, scary eyes. If I think about happy cartoon cows in the meadow eating grass, its probably because they're awaiting their death and just having their last meal before they end up suffering. If I think about stuffed animals, it'll be walking teddies with knife in their hand or one eye popped out. I guess you get my point but that was then.

Right now, I'm feeling a whole lot better and I can imagine the rainbows appearing and the dark clouds which caused all the lightning went away. There comes the sun shining tonight, in my mind... :) And yeah, I don't feel crappy right now. I hope I'll a good sleep and I will continue watching the movies remaining in my laptop. The next time I watch a horror movie? Well, I'll definitely have to think twice, take beta-blockers or something. hehe. I guess I'll be okay. It's all in your mind and it depends on how you want to take it. As for me, I'm really tired now and I don't want to think about anything. My eyes hurt and they're tired. ;)

Thursday, November 20, 2008

6 Things About 6 Things

For those who chat with me online, you'd probably notice how my msn is pms-ing. Ignatius calls it the acute multiple broadband disconnections. Oh well, life's been good. I like staying at home, managing the laptop while lying on the bed. :) But I also like window shopping, walking the whole day and looking at things. I have so many things to write. Bear with me, if you would. :)

This time, Joon Heng tagged me. 6 things about 6 things.

[1] 6 things I'm passionate about


i. Dancing

I've been dancing since I was young- ballet, gymnastics, cheerleading. It was just recently that I learnt breakdancing and I'm not improving at that. I do however have interest for latin dances and I want to try Tango. Dancing is enjoyable when someone comes up with the steps and all you have to do is just learn it and present it at your best. Choreographing is the hard part but dancing becomes more enjoyable when you can choreograph to your satisfaction, style and teach others. If I have a chance, I would really like to try contemporary as well... I may not be able to finish what I've started and may not reach the high levels but to me, it doesn't really bug me because I love dancing! Every dance is a challenge; the flow and coordination to other moves and to the music; every detail and strength of each move. I'm starting sound like a nerd.. =.=

ii. Korean Dramas/Movies/Music

I love the dramas and the music. It all started with Winter Sonata and Autumn In My Heart. Those two are classics. Then, there was Full House which made its big hit. My personal favourite would be Sassy Girl Chun-Hyang. Of course there are long series such as Jewel In The Palace which had 3 volumes and Hwang Jini (which is related to Korean culture in traditional dance and music) As for movies, I have so many favourites! Love, So Divine, My Sassy Girl, Virgin Snow (which has both Japanese and Korean elements as well as art) and many more... Umm, as for music, I love Se7en, TVXQ, Epik High (I'm yet to get hold of their full albums), Big Bang and a few more. :) Original Soundtracks, yes, I have them and I like most of them as well. I'm not a Korean wannabe or anything but it is something that I like to listen or watch. I'm not a weirdo. I bet you have your own interest as well, right?

iii. Art

When I have the mood, I'll design and make things. I've been designing cheerleading uniforms since I was in Form 4. I love making cards, bookmarks, wallet cards etc. I like experimenting and using different materials to make things. I'm a noob in most things because I hardly get inspiration to do well. The truth is, when I was a kid, I wanted to be a fashion designer but when I grew up, I found my way to Science and since I didn't want to lose the artistic part, I resort to making stuff. I'm not good with painting or drawing. I'm never good with colour pencils or crayons. I used to wonder why I'm the weird one in school but I guess I find passion in other fields of art. If you put me in an art gallery, I don't think I'll move from that building. When Kor Woi and Natasha showed me this art shop in Gardens, I spent hours over there. Like what JJ would put it, 'It's heaven for Esther'.

iv. Blogging

My friends who don't blog would think that I'm a blogging freak. But I'm proud to be a blogger. Because it's not easy being one. I believe that the biggest responsibility of a blogger would be maintaining his/her blog and that is a problem for most bloggers because they think that it is time consuming. It's true. Statistics has shown it before. I wrote an essay for my English assignment last year on blogging. Until today, I'm still very happy and to an extent proud of it because I've placed hell lot of effort in it. That assignment led me to meeting my favourite Malaysian author, Lydia Teh as well as other successful authors. I think... like every blogger, we love blogging for a few reasons. This blog used to be a place where I'd pen down memories; my happiness and unhappiness; my boredom. It used to be a place where I'll leave all my complains. Then, came the serious blogging of using proper English and practicing to write and express. Still, I'm not one of the best writers but I'm glad I've gotten to this stage of being able to write what I think. Few years ago, I'd write about looking back and reading what I've written. Few years later (now), I've seen what I've written and boy oh boy was my English horrible and I don't remember half of what I've posted before.

v. Movies

Especially those related to students/teenagers. If there's a movie about talent, I'd be there! For example, ice-skating- Ice Princess; music- Raise Your Voice; cheerleading- Bring It On, Bring It On Again, Bring It On- All or Nothing, Bring It On- In It To Win It etc. I think you get the idea. Yes, I like movies with effects (be it magical or not) such as Harry Potter, Mr. Magorium Wonder Emporium, Night At The Museum. If there are animations or Pixar movies, I'll be there too! Meet the Robinsons, Finding Nemo, Ratatouille etc. I'm looking forward to watch Igor! :D

vi. Sports/Games

Ice-skating! Darts, chess, pool (well, I have the interest but still a noob XD) I'm hoping to try rock climbing one day. I'm planning to go ice-skating a couple more times before uni starts again. :)

[2] 6 books I read recently

i. I'm Not Sick, Just A Bit Unwell- Life with Neurofibromatosis

ii. Not A Penny More, Not A Penny Less (one of my favourites)

iii. A Long Way Gone

That's it. I haven't been into reading really. But there are 3 novels awaiting me :) which I would soon add to the list.

- The Last Empress
- The Other Side Of The Story
- Mayada, Daughter of Iraq

[3] 6 songs/albums I can listen to over and over again

I'm probably going to list more than 6 songs but I will list the 6 artist to those different songs.

i. Secondhand Serenade: Fall For You, Vulnerable, Your Call and many more...

ii. Scouting For Girls: She's So Lovely, Heartbeat, The Airplane Song and many more...

iii. The Script: The Man Who Can't Be Moved

iv. Switchfoot: Let Your Love Be Strong, Yesterdays

v. Selena Gormez: Tell Me Something I Don't Know

vi. Se7en: I Know, Passion

[4] 6 things I have learnt this past year

i. Anything can happen. No matter how impossible/mismatched things are, there is always a possibility of it happening; of it becoming a successful thing; of it becoming the best thing that has ever happened to you.

ii. Somethings are worth fighting for. If you knew me last year, I would say, don't fight for things. But as you can see, I've changed my mind. If you want something and you know you must get it, fight for it. For example, the Astro remote control in the student lounge if you want to watch something other than sports or the air-conditioner remote control if you want the room temperature to not be so cold nor too warm. ( ",) If you don't succeed the first time, try try again. :P

iii. When you're enthusiastic/passionate about something, you can make the people around you feel enthusiastic/passionate as well.

iv. Exam period is an emo period, but with the right company, you can de-emonize the atmosphere and make learning fun instead of studying just to pass exams. I remember EATing Cocaine. Haha, not the real cocaine anyway. It was just a way to remember the indirect adrenergic agonist which are Ephedrine, Amphetamine, Tyramine, Cocaine.

v. Walking in heels is not easy but do-able. I needed the courage to walk around in uni in heels and stand back up, pretending like nothing happened after a couple of falls. Imagine hip hop in heels. I'm so proud of Bombshe11. :)

vi. The university is a scary place when there are no students. I remember going to uni with Chia Sin and JJ during the Raya Holidays and it was really scary, especially the PBL rooms because the guards would switch off the lights everytime we switch it on. Hence, the 'hallway' is extremely dark although its just afternoon.

[5] 6 valuable things I own

Actually, I don't own any. They were all lent to me by God. Imagine when we leave this place, we don't bring them along with us. Everything that God gave me is valuable and I mean EVERYTHING. So, 6 valuable things that I hold close to me...

i. My memories with my family: as a child and a sister.

ii. My memories with my friends- with close friends, best friends, normal friends and someone. :)

iii. My memories and experiences as a teenager, student and a friend.

iv. My gadgets: laptop- where all my pictures, music, movies, series are... ;cellphone- after my previous cell died on me, I'm appreciating the one I have now. I'm just waiting to get the other fixed because all my contacts are in there. :S ;iPod- must have in uni because when there's nothing to do, I listen to music while studying.

v. Everything related to knowledge: My books, notes, brother's notes...

vi. My cow. :)

[6] 6 bloggers I tag


i. Joanne
ii. Faye
iii. Lilian
iv. Kar Men
v. Sin Yee
vi. Jasmine

Finally, I've finished writing. I have no idea how long I took to write this. I'm a slow writer. The time now is 8.14pm. So, compare it to the time when I started writing this. o.O I guess I didn't know what to write, and I think too much.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

'The Accidental Husband'

It was a movie that was recommended to me by Jae Ric. Released this year, it is a romantic comedy. It is about a lady who has done many research in human relationships and she has her own radio show. While she gives advice to other women about their relationships, the last one made her life more interesting. Why so?

Well, she caused two people to not get married and somehow, she was married virtually, as a payback by the fireman (who was dumped). This lady was about to get married herself and found out that she has been married to someone she doesn't know. The plot builds up as she travels to find the fireman and get him to sign the divorce papers (if I'm not wrong). Since she was a famous person herself, other people thought that the fireman was her fiance when it wasn't true.

There are a few funny moments as well and what I like most about this movie is that the Indian culture is blended into it as well. The fireman also acted as Danny in Grey's Anatomy. The patient who Izzie liked. Soon, the lady began to realise that the person who she actually likes is not who she thought it was. Just like most romantic comedies, there will be conflict between the two individuals. They argue. They realise something. They make up. Finally, happily ever after.

Still, it is a nice movie. Something nicer than 'Serendipity'. Jae Ric and I agree on this one. A line from the movie which sticks in my mind though is 'You can't find something when you don't know what you're looking for.' It's interesting how she talks about relationships. She was always so confident until asked by a listener 'What if you're wrong?'

That's about it I guess about this movie. I sure do left a lot of details because it's nicer to find out for yourself. :)

Monday, November 17, 2008

'Children of Huang Shi'

Everyone seem to have something to do- a trip to go for, a function to attend, a meet up, movies or dramas to watch. As for me, I've been reading blogs, sleeping, dreaming, thinking about what to blog about and watching movies. I'm bored with online chatting because there's nothing to talk about. :l

The last movie which I watched was 'Children of Huang Shi'. It a story about a reporter's life during the war. The setting was in China. It was when the Japanese invaded China. This reporter was nearly killed in Nanjing but was saved by the Chinese. His friend who went to Nanjing with him was killed and he could not get home to get married. His new friend (the guy who saved him) and the doctor suggested that he goes to Huang Shi which was located further north from where they were as he would be safer there.

In Huang Shi, the reporter meets a group of children. He thought the building was a school. Little did he know, it was actually an orphanage. It was later, that he was told that it's an orphanage. Every children had their own story and traumatic experience. As the doctor visits him and the children once again, she pursuaded him to stay and care for the children- to show them warmth; to teach them to care for others and show that they are not alone. It was over time that the children opened up to him. The reporter, himself, also learned Mandarin.

However, it wasn't safe after the Japanese invasion reaches nearer to Huang Shi. The reporter decided that it was safer for the children in a place, across the mountains and Yellow River. I believe this is still part of the Exposition of the plot. The journey was over 3 months and the children travelled for more than 300 miles. As they reached a city, they were aided by the minister who provided transport for another 200 miles of travel.

In the beginning, I thought that the story was a gruesome one due to the killing. But then, it became a touching one as the reporter was patient in helping to improve the children's lives. There were also some moments which were sad to see the children see their parents dying in front of them or as they lose a friend.

It's a nice movie to watch. I wouldn't mind watching it again. I'll give it a 4 out of 5. :) But one thing's for sure, it's not a theme that I normally watch- war stories.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Appreciate

This is part of an email which Lydia sent to me and I find it really meaningful. Most of you might have came across it but I still want to share it. :)

What would you do if every time you fell in love with someone you had to say good-bye?
What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?
What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?
What would you do if you loved someone more than anything else and you could never have them?

Some people live and some people die.

But I want to tell you I love you and you are a true friend...

That I will always be here for you when and if you need me...
If I died tomorrow, you would be in my heart forever.

Would I be in yours?
You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next year, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.
So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.

I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.
Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.

I LIKE
MY FRIENDS ALWAYS &
F
OREVER! ! !