Sunday, July 29, 2007

Upcoming Events

I’m feeling depressed when I shouldn’t be because of some people who is not worth it. But, I can’t help it because that person turned out to be someone I trust and believed in. Even if it is not him, it is his brother or his cousins. I’m confused and I’m upset.

Last Friday was Charity Night for the autistic children. I enjoyed myself with the performances. It was really good and the modelling contest was awesome. Well, the whole thing was okay for me. I guess I didn’t regret going with my other friends.

My class is managing the House of Horrors for the Charity Drive on Monday and Tuesday. I had to go to college on Saturday to help out and I got to know that they’re not exactly finished today. All I can say for now is that it is scary. The props and costumes which they bought suits the theme.

Tomorrow is ECA day and also the first day of the House of Horrors. Also, tomorrow is the first day of the Mini Project. I’m nervous. :S

I might not be updating for the time being. Although I have many things to write about, I don’t feel like writing because I feel condemned. Until I get over my issues, this could PROBABLY be my last post. At least, it is better than abandoning the blog.

Sometimes, unexpected things happen and sometimes, I find it really hard to believe. I just can’t trust someone who ignores me. So what if you think I’m oversensitive or overreacting? I don’t think I am and because I know better about myself and about some things, I’m no moron and you have no right to call me one.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007


You know what I feel like doing right now? It’s going back to sleep but damn, I can’t believe that for the past one week until today, I’ve been waking up late! Argh…

Let alone the thought of Moral test and to face my Maths teacher, I so do not want to go to college today. *Talking to myself: What am I thinking?*

The only word I feel like saying right now: stupiditydotcom. Sure, it is a made up word. So what?
General statement: People make mistakes and it’s all part of the learning process.

If you want to teach, don’t vent your anger of frustrations. Like how Jared always correct my grammar and vocabulary, he teaches patiently. Don’t call others names just because they got it wrong and you got it right. You may be that smart but don’t forget to think about ‘What if someone else said what you said to the others?’ What goes around comes around.

Don’t ask me how I know, I just do and it’s none of you concern of whether really I know, or not.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Brain drained

I was in the library today, spending time teaching a friend of mine Mathematics since on Monday, there is a test to sit for.

To speak and explain for about 2 hours was not easy. The responsibility of teaching and knowing that you have to be 101% sure of what you are telling the other person is a HUGE responsibility. If ever the other person learn something that is wrong because of you, then you will probably feel really guilty. I feel like my head was going to explode, not because of the person who I was teaching but was because I was trying to not get confused with the different standard deviations and trying to make the other person understand.

It’s all a complicated process. I think peer teaching for the past few months has helped me a lot in my studies as well but sometimes, I just feel like I’ve got no hope. When I learn something, I make sure that I know everything before I enter the exam hall and I mean EVERYTHING. However, I don’t know what I don’t know. Also today, there was a Biology experiment design today. I feel so brain drained.

On something random, I’ve been trying to reply to the past comments but they don’t seem to appear. I’ve checked my Askimet spam but there’s nothing there. Does anyone have any idea of what I should do? Anyway, I’m trying to learn more about computer programming for my Physics project. If I can’t handle it, I’d probably change my project question to something related to X-Ray.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Lyrics: True Colours

I guess at this age, liking someone is normal and knowing that the person you like likes you too makes you happy…Don’t you think so? Everything is so complicated. Life becomes so complicated. You probably take about years to know the person, a second to fall real deep in love and pretty much a long time to forget about that person to move on.

When I like someone, I would always want to see the person and I would be distressed if I don’t see him but knowing that he is close to me makes me happy. Sometimes, I feel happy if he is away from me for more than a hundred miles (don’t need to see him anymore) if he has hurt my feelings before but what happens when you can’t get away from him (as in, you see him nearly everyday)? Well, I’m just wondering, as usual. Someone was talking about true colours and coincidentally, I thought about this song. You’ve proabably heard this song before in television advertisements. Don’t know why I love this song though.

By Cyndi Lauper, ‘True colours’.

You with the sad eyes
Don’t be discouraged
Oh I realize
It’s hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining throughI see your true colors
And that’s why I love you
So don’t be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don’t be unhappy, can’t remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you’ve taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I’ll be there

And I’ll see your true colors
Shining throughI see your true colors
And that’s why I love you
So don’t be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Friday, July 06, 2007

Darn Lock

The last thing I would ever end up doing is breaking a property in my college and have the news spread around the campus, then face the embarrassment…

I didn’t notice that my lock (the combination type) was faulty. I did not have that problem before this, so this time, I panicked big time. Furthermore, my bag and books were in the locker. I called my brother and he suggests that I should ask the librarian to break open the locker. That was what I was going to do until a senior of mine, who just came back after his holidays stopped to have a little chat.

At the same time, I talked to him about my story and asked him if he could do anything about it. Sure, he was laughing and it did get the attention of other students. They were practically staring at us. He didn’t give up and so, with his magnificent powers, the lock when ka-boom! Nah, actually, I didn’t know that he was strong enough to ‘twist’ the metal thingy which created a small gap, just enough to remove the lock from the locker. And there wasn’t any damage done to the locker. I admit that anything could have happened. I could have ended up damaging college property. :S

Imagine how it would be like had I reported to the librarian.
Me: Excuse me. I need your help. I need you to break down the locker which I’m using because my lock became faulty and I can’t take out my stuff.
Librarian: *swt* -____-ll
Thanks to my senior, I was saved! LOL