Friday, October 28, 2005

Shop till you drop..

mood: missing Malaysia

I haven't been posting for two days -I think. So, I've been busy. I went shopping with my mum and things here can be said expensive. However, if you convert the price to RM, then, you won't find it that expensive. I would say that it is reasonable except certain things-clothes, shoes, accesories. ROXY here is cheaper compared to Malaysia. My mum bought me 3 shirts. I'm not much of a ROXY fan but if it fits you, the price is reasonable and unique, why not? Besides that, I went to LIZZARD (I know, weird name) to get a pair of pants. The shopping malls here can be compared to MidValley. It's big, and there are MANY shops. Shop till you drop!
I had Chinese food yesterday. I was thinking of Nasi Lemak and I am missing Malaysian food. Curry, Chee Cheong Fan and Tom Yam. Mmm.... The warm weather and the people. I'm going to appreciate everything when I get back there. One more thing I will appreciate is plastic bags. Why? Over here, when you buy your groceries, they charge you R0.30 for each plastic bag- RM0.18. This is to reduce pollution because when people throw plastic bags, they (plastic bags) might end up on the roads, in the water. The animals will eat it and they die. So, everywhere you go, you see people carrying a green bag to put in their groceries. The bag costs R5 = RM3. But you can reuse it. So, it's more worth it.

This is Pavillion from the side view. It is a shopping mall.

Pavillion from the front view.

TTFN.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

How to turn on the light..

It's 7.30am but in Malaysia, it's 1.35pm. I woke up and looked outside. It was raining. Yesterday was 17*C (sorry I couldn't find the degree) and after watching the weather forecast, it was suppose to be 19*C. I guess today is going to be colder than yesterday. I feet were apparently freezing. The dark clouds seemed to be blown towards the land. The sea looked larger than usual (it seemed but how could it be?) I noticed that the students here walk to school. Whether they wear uniforms, I'm not sure. They wear a sweater due to the coldness. One of them waved at me and it would be inpolite to not wave back. So, I took the courtesy and wave. He smiled and continued his journey up the hill.
They don't use switches that turns on the light. Weird but..Hmm, see for yourself.

Notice the chain? Well, there are two chains. One is for the fan, the other is for the light.

After pulling the chain,............................

Walaahh, you have the light! Amazing, isn't it? <.<

Monday, October 24, 2005

SA pics..

So, here I am in South Africa. Temparature here is nearly the same as Cameron Highlands. Pretty cold when it is windy and it is summer now. So far, I haven't been to many places but hopefully I will. I was meddling with my brother's digital camera. Snapping pictures here and there. Let me show you.

My dream bedroom. Why? Because it is beside the window.

From the window of the bedroom. You see plants. Up there is the carpark. Weird..

I'm staying on the ground floor. So, I wouldn't call it balcony. This is the view outside the house.

After zooming, you can see the sea! Nice isn't it to live near the sea.
My pictures seem okay to me but some may think that it's blur. Hey, I'm not a professional like Jasmine yet. Hmm, that's all for now.

Saturday, October 22, 2005

no-topic

mood: nutz

I had Japanese food for lunch. Bloated. Finally, I have come to my senses. Not all yet, recovering from mental stress. LOL. I'm going fanatic. I bought a book entitled "Being A Happy Teenager". I love it so much. Initially, I thought of bringing along RM50 with me because my mum says that our purse must always have money so that in future, we have money. I resisted everything which tempted me to spend money on. Besides that was my last RM50 note for this month. Then, my brother showed me the book and I couldn't resist anymore. I had to get the book. There goes my money.
It feels good buying books with your own money. It made me treasure my books. Since I don't have any activities nowaadays, I don't know what to talk about. Short posts for now and I hope you guys will like the song I put up.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Violence in the air?

mood: violence but trying to control

This is my new blog address. Why did I change it? Well, I want to stop certain people from visiting this place. Redunden but history is repeating over and over again. As usual it is frienemies. Earlier, I chatted on MSN with a friend over his depression. Then, I realised that he is facing the similar situation as me. Anyway, one of my frienemies didn't attend school today. She was online just now. So happen, I checked her Physics paper today. So, I told her the marks she got. I don't know why but she went all cold on me. She asked me why my MSN nickname was similar to hers. It was like this...

Nothing is [SOUND]>Why is it that your nickname is like mine?
FREE[dom]>> Oh really? Yeah horr.. I didn't realise it.. (which I truthfully didn't)
NIS>rigghhttt

I can predict that tomorrow, she'll go to school to tell other people about it and there goes the gossiping in my class again. I hate my class, friends, school.. But I will never hate my teachers. I have have decided to turn over a new leaf. And this time, it's for good. It is because of you that I am who I am today, what I think now. "Friends is the biggest influence". Now, I believe it is true.
In school, I feel like an outcast. Everyone's ego is getting to their head. They don't seem to accept what I think. Like I've posted in last time's post, they only think that they are right. I'm getting sick of this. I will after all get better friends than them in the future. They are just ruining my life with their innocent stories. They should bear in mind that I'm not the one who failed more than 2 subjects and did badly. I'm not saying that I did well but if someone can be egoistic because he or she failed and has been passing words around, that's too much.
This is the end of G-Unit. One day, they should experience how it would be like to be in my shoes. Maybe I was brought up in a different way compared to them. It is not my lose that I loose them. It's my lose that I'm hurt by them. This is training. Damn it..

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Feel like crap..

mOOd: Crap.. HAha

"Guess who's back. Back again"-Eminem

It was boring in school today. No teachers, no homework, nothing. It's good but then, I feel understressed (stress because there is nothing to do). That's good. I was playing 'Need For Speed Underground 2' for past few days and it's a little tough for me. I'm not addicted to it though. Well, I'm a girl and I don't have the skills.
Nowadays, I don't know what to blog about. My daily routine is nearly the same. Come home, have lunch and SLEEP. Precious sleep until 5 something. I can really sleep. There was once when I slept around 11 something pm and woke up around 4 pm the next day. It is the dreaming part which I love. Yes, I love to dream.
Right now, I'm enjoying the honeydew which I got with my mum at Econsave. I picked it and it's not sweet. You might guessed it right. I don't know how to choose. HaHA... But hey, it still has vitamins right? There is 4 more days until I leave for South Africa. Until then, I'm not sure if I will be able to go online. I hope so. I'll post some pictures here.
There, I'll be going to the safari. Have lunch with giraffe, lions and elephants. Have dinner with sharks.. Nah.. I'm just kidding. If I were to have dinner with the sharks, I'm the food. Maybe then, I'll apply the 'Fish are food, not friends' rule. LOL...
During tuition today, Joo Ztat and I were trying to rule over the spaces. Well, you see, there wasn't enough space on the table and I was sitting at the side. My hand and his hand came to one junction and we were putting force. The result: both our writing were terrible. LOL...We were laughing about it through out the class.
He's become nicer to me compared to early of the year. Maybe because he has a girlfriend now. So, he learns to treat people nicer. But then sometimes, arguing with him is also fun. I know it's weird but I like arguing with him. I finally got to talk to someone after a year knowing him. After we finished the work which Mr. Mano gave us and also after marking other people's paper, we had to return the paper to the rightful owner. Then, he called out, " Esther, pass the paper to the front." I'm suprised he even knows my name and asked me to add him in friendster.

>.< Hungry... Nuts..

mood: nuts

My afternoon sleep was at 5 something and I woke up around 9pm. Yup, I missed dinner. I got back my English results in school today and screwed it. I guess I have moved on and couldn't care less about my results but of course next year is a "crucial" year. I've put up a new song and I hope you guys would like it. There is also a song request going on. Since I think it's kind of boring having you guys to listen to the same song over and over again, you can decide for what you want to listen to. I'll put up the song if it's available. Anyone heard of 'Let The Music Heal Your Soul' by Aaron Carter feat. BSB,`N Sync,The Moffatts,The Boyz,Touche? I really like the song but I can't find the code for it. If you have other websites that gives music codes, tag the website in the cbox. I have searched in http://www.videocodes4u.com and http://www.freevideocodes.com but the song is not there. So far, I love Daniel Powter-Bad Day. If you want to continue listening to him, sure, no prob.
I bought a Hari Raya Card for RM10 today. Ouch! Yeah.. it's for my last year's BM teacher. I really like her. She's so kind and open-minded. This year, we rarely see each other but yeah, we still talk. A couple of times in a full moon. If only she continued to teach until upper secondary. What is there to be done in school now since exams over? *YAWNN... I bought a Malay novel today. My teacher said that I should read novels to improve my BM. So, that's it for today... I'm hungry now..

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Random feelings and thoughts...

mood: sad and hatred (related)

HATRED

Well, first I want to say that I spend my afternoon writing two reports because some secretary was to lazy to write. The treasurer wasn't collecting any money for the Cheerleading Farewell Party. Yes, it's nearly end of the year and we haven't hold the farewell for the Form 5s'. Teacher has been coming after me for the club accounts and the plans for the Farewell. Thank goodness that she'll be away for three days starting on Wednesday. My friends weren't any good. I called them like numerous times but they didn't answer.
Anyway, I want to talk about what kind of people I hate. I have mentioned a little in my earlier post. Back-stabbers, gossipers, calling other people names and thinking they are the greatest person on earth. Self praise is no praise. I learnt that from my friend. Constantly, I always remind myself not to praise myself. But then it seems that, the phrase has been twisted to 'self praise is all praise'. I've got to admit her creativity to change the phrase.
"People change." Yeah, and I feel that she turned her back on me too many times. Always I have been sad, crushed like a bug, talking about it in this blog. Now, I still try to open up to her but abruptly, she slams that window or door. I'm pretty disappointed. I don't want her to be my frienemy and it seems that every friend who I was close with in school is becoming my frienemy and I don't want that to happen.
I know she's a good influence. I understand her but there are some times that she don't understand me. All my life, I have tried to work hard, get good results and please my parents. I don't want to let their hopes so high fall just like that. I still have to take care of them when I grow up and I have to find a career which can promise me a good life so that my parents don't need to suffer.
Some people don't understand that. Being the youngest in the family is a pressure. Youngest in the family are usually compared to the other siblings and that's not a very wise thing. Green-eyed monster of jealousy might ust get to him/her. Feeling things are unfair to them. Back to the topic, I don't like people who think that they are they are the only one facing the situation. Like HELLO!! , people don't tell out their problems, now do they? I feel like I'm the only facing problems because I tell and always hope for a solution.

SAD

What I do when I'm sad...
Blog, draw, listen to music, reflect on myself, play PC games, talk to a friend, cry? (that's normal.. girls do that), be anti-social, talk to my conscience (here I'm nutz) = analyzing what went wrong, on the net, shopping, ICE CREAM!!, eat, feed a lot of food the fish (I used to.. now the fishes are gone and NO, they didn't die because I fed them too much, it was lack of oxygen), chocolate... =)

mood: sleepy

I went to Parade today with my family to have lunch and did some shopping for my brother. I experienced something which I have experienced before. It all happened when we made our orders. I ordered for 'Trail Chicken' and my dad ordered for 'Black Pepper Chicken'. When our food arrived, the waitress repeated the name of the food. Mine turned out to be 'Tradisional Chicken' where as my dad's turned out to be 'BBQ Chicken'. Then, I had a flashback to the beginning of the year when I asked for a 'Honey Peach' drink. The person gave me a Honeydew drink. Ahh.. The English language..Just by pronouncing it wrongly, you get a total new meaning.*Yawnn..

I think I'm going to stop here before I crap on and on... =)

Friday, October 14, 2005

Oh yeah.. uh-huh..

mood:runsing

Teacher didn't come into class today. So, I made a friendship band for myself because I was bored. What happened to my friends? They joined allies with my frienemies. Nah.. I think I have become more anti-social in class. I don't know why but I can't stand people who think that they are the greatest (most popular, most beautiful, most nearly perfect) one of all. They act like beauty queens and it attracted a lot of people's attention including the teachers. *sigh I can't really comment on that. This is after all a hypocritical world.
I just discover the other part of the class who are more friendly and they don't judge others. They asked me for my email and if I have a friendster account not forgetting my blog URL. That make me feel remembered. When I come to think about it, I feel as though I have a split personality. I don't know why. I'm not me when I'm with my friends. It's something like I'm a wacky nutz case person. When I face my laptop or at home with my family or close friends, I feel like myself.
I often remind myslef about 'si tenggang's homecoming' where he learnt about humility and how the rich talks and the poem 'If'. So many probabilities but impossible to fulfill all. It's not a must though. This year, I learnt the meaning of challenges in life when I fell drastically in what something I didn't expect to hit me. I learnt to be grateful-to appreciate my family, friends-I guess that's why I never wanted to give up on any of them unless they give up on me.

mood: peaceful

My English teacher added 4 marks for my English paper 1 (the one which has objective, summary, lit, info transfer). That made my day. Now, I have 64/75. It's not that good considering I lost 11 marks but then again, nobody's perfect and my standards are considered high to certain people. My teacher said that only one girl got A1 for essay section (paper 2). That of course isn't me. That really worries me. I have no idea on how to face my parents (my dad especially) with a B3 or worse. I think I shouldn't have include in colloquials into my essay. For a second, I don't think my teacher knows a single thing I'm writing about.
Now, I have a new interest. I don't think I'll involve myself into DotA. I think I would prefer Need For Speed. Now I have to brush up my 'skills'. Hehe.. Well, I have forgotten how to control the keys especially when it comes to an angle, it seems that I would always bang the side and overturn the car. *sigh... I hope I can do this soon and well enough because I'm planning to get Need For Speed-Underground. That's right! =)

'Friends' NOT..

Mood: Sleepy and a lil' rebellious... =)

Class was damn noisy today. My classmate said something sensitive to another friend of mine, which was I'm not allowed to touch her things because I am her enemy. Ouch! I mean, excuse mua, she scores higher than me in practically every single subject there is. I don't even know the cause. One thing I hate is people hating me without me knowing the cause. It's as though all the fault is on me. I exaggerate but I don't brag on and on about my lousy exam marks. I do congratulate other people for getting higher than me. I don't stop talking to my friend for getting higher than me. This is currently how other people is treating me in class.
A friend (to me) is someone who is always there to help, guide and support us when we are in trouble. Now, I can say history may be repeating itself. *sigh Why does all this need to take place? As though life isn't full of ups and downs enough. 'A friend' backstabs, gossips about me and thinks I don't have a single clue about it. I don't know why I have been so nice. I'm not saying that it's bad to be nice but being too nice is just the same as cutting your nose to spite your face. They take advantage (like I may have mentioned earlier). What "FRIENDS".
How I felt in school today is the same as how I felt when my friends girlfriend misunderstood me thinking I have this so-called special relationship with her boyfriend. What was worst was that she spreaded this thing in a forum. I was damn mad. But then again, she's the one who is sensitive and is putting the blame that I ruined her relationship which I didn't. To forgive and forget is not an easy task.
There is no use of me complaining right? It won't get me any further. Gossiping and backstabbing won't make me feel any better but what my class don't understand is how I feel. I just want to express myself. They Complain, Critisize and then, Condemn. Three Cs'. Because I can't express through my speech, I can only type about it and feel so much better than keeping it inside. I love writing in this blog because I know that there are people who reads this, who understands a dilemma of a senior high school student.
Thanks again you guys who have been visiting my blog especially my brother (Well, I knid of force him to read it everyday, but sometimes he willingly reads them).

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Teguran//Advices..

I so have learnt my lesson this time. Even so, I don't know what went wrong. Anyway, I've decided to turn a new leaf. Hopefully, I will manage to do so for the better or else I am going to regret. By that time, it's no use crying over spilt milk, right? After the results I've gotten back, I was disappointed as well. I mean, who wouldn't be? These are some of the people whom I talked to and what they said:
Pn. Tan- You need to be more focused. Like Donald Trump once said, if you want to be successful, you need to be focused and pay attention to what is being said. You must do a lot of excercise to excel in your studies. One thing Esther that I was shocked, I did not expect you to get this marks for you EST. What happened? I was looking forward to see your marks and there it is. I've seen you grow. You were in my lessons since you were in Form 2 and that time I must say, you were like jackal (<.<) . But lucky thing you became more matured within these two years or else I don't know what to do with you. It's alright to fall in Form 4. Many students experience the same thing. Soon, you'll realise your mistake and stand again.
Mr. Mano- People don't always get what they want. I know you are a good student. I've seen how you do your work in my class. Don't give up. If you don't do well, you must continue trying. You know what your mistakes are now, don't you? Then, you must improve. Be strong.When you fall, you must stand. Ok?
My Dad- You must always mantain cleanliness. When your surroundings' not clean, you attract negativity. When you come home, you must read what you have learnt. Don't spend so much time on tv and on the net. Don't chat online so much (I don't). What's the point of me sending you to tuition when you can't get good results for me? You must think of your future.
My Mum- Esther, you must prove to us that you can do well for you SPM. Mix with those who you think can help you. Don't worry about others. Some friends can just drag you down and ruin your future. Be wise when you choose your friends. Now you know what you have done wrong, fix it. Don't wait until too late.
There you have it, 'teguran' I got from 2 teachers and my parents. I've got to admit that what they said is true. If it wasn't for Mr. Mano, I will still be having depression now. He brought me back on track after I 'terpesong' so much. I'm so thankful to have him as my Bio teacher.
If you have any advice to add, please do so. Until then..

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Daniel Powter Lyrics...

Daniel Powter-Bad Day

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

Add. Maths...History.. Mod Maths..

Stunned and speechless for a moment
Stared blankly, not a movement
Never have I gotten marks so low
Guess I've got to go with the flow.

Hearing others getting an 'A'
"Wah, good lah.." they say
Deceived again, I'm tired already
Don't want to believe, I'm not ready.

No more will to study
Looks like Maths skills have turned rusty
I envy those who scored high
I'm disappointed.. I want to cry.

I've tried my beset yet not satisfied
Heart attacked, I nearly died... <-- (literally)
Screw the papers, it's over and done
Let bygones be bygones.

I gotten back 3 papers which were add maths, mod maths, and history. Two out of three were simply terrible which no words could explain. Maybe my standards are high but I'm very disappointed in myself especially for add maths (like in the poem). I've predicted my History marks which I think I deserved to get. This song now is just the song for my situation now. *sigh.. High school life this is...

Monday, October 10, 2005

Nutz..

I think I'm MAD writing poetry....
Letting my thoughts wander; be free
Perhaps I was influenced by Jared Ee.....
Reading his pieces inspired me..

There was Mod Maths and Chemistry
I FELT stressed and misery....
Exams are now over, 'HURRAY!'
'FREEDOM HERE I COME' shall I say?

Boy, is this difficult to rhyme..??
So LITTLE written, took so MUCH time
Certified nuts but I feel gay
My ever first masterpiece....... 'YAY!'

3 stanzas ok for a first timer? Well, I doubt if I would ever write another one again. I realised that you need a wide range of vocabulary to keep the rhyming scheme on and it's obvious that I don't. I took nearly 3 hours brainstorming of how to make this a little more interesting. Jared's poem became my guideline of writing. I must admit that this one does not have any hidden meaning (isi tersirat) and it is short.
Life is good after exams. Finally, I'm back to my normal life of when I'm allowed to watch tv the whole day and surf the internet 24/7 with a limit of course. Tata for now.. Until next time.. =)

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Back and aching...

YUP! I am back from KL. Seems like my shopping for clothes became shopping for accessories. I went to 1 Utama and MidValley yesterday and back to 1 Utama again today. The hunting for clothes started in around noon and ended around 8 something in the evening. Boy, do my leg hurts! I hope I can still walk around school tomorrow -exaggerating-.
I got 3 pairs of earings from a cultural exhibition, 1 handbag which came with a free red purse and a pair of earings from MOMOE. This afternoon, I got a sleeveless shirt and a handbag from Levi's. Some may think that I spend a lot of money but nah.. What I bought was with a reasonable price. I don't go for t-shirts that's a few hundred bucks even though there is a peribahasa 'alah membeli menang terpakai'. I went to FCUK (French Connection UK) -don't berfikiran serong- and wohhh.. the price gave stopped my heart for a second. But then again, it's the quality of the material that we are paying for.
Tomorrow is the last day of my endterm and I'm free from suffering (this year only). I so can't wait for tomorrow...

Friday, October 07, 2005

Wat da ya think?

Ok. As some of you would realise, I added something to this. It is the WELCOME sign. It's so cute and it has the right size. Other signs were too big. Tell me what you think about it aite?If you think that it's not suitable, I'll try to find another one that is more suitable. For those of you who might want to know Hopefully.. I got a hair cut today. Finally!

I found this when I was surfing the net. Funny.. Don't you think? I editted my friendster background and now I'm in love with it. If only I know how to insert it here. It looks like the MATRIX. I also love the song. Click Five- Just The Girl.

I don't know why I have nothing to blog about today. I'm crapping away... Since I have nothing to write, I'll stop here then..~Tata...

Thursday, October 06, 2005

BM? Pantun? FLY.fm?

Exams going to be over in 2 days. I am not so stressed now. Actually I'm slumber now. Watching TV, blogging, friendstering, chatting and stuff. I will be heading to KL on Saturday morning and will be returning on Sunday. Monday is the end of my suffering! Nah.. Anyway, I felt kind of offended today by my BM teacher. She was marking our testpapers and I asked her when she would be returning it to us. Then, she replied, "Ah, Esther. Saya sudah mark kertas kamu. Karangan kamu ada terlalu banyak pantun. Saya baca hingga ia membosankan saya. Saya rasa kamu patut mengembangkan isi kamu. Bukan menulis pantun. Bahasa kamu ok. Hanya saya rasa isi kamu.. Sangat sayang sahaja. Terpaksalah saya beri kamu markah yang lebih kurang sedikit."
Now, I made 4 pantun. 2 for the first question and another 2 for the second question. I was encouraged by my tuition teacher to write pantun. Not to many for each karangan. According to him, writing pantun and inserting peribahasa is a use of language. There is no wrong in writing pantun for essays. Besides that, he also added that not many would take the liberty to create pantun.
I think that's true. In my class, as far as I'm concerned, I'm the only one who wrote pantun. Arrghh.. I don't want to think about BM. I am near to my freedom. Will I excel to Sc1 , remain or go down to Sc3? AH, the suspens is killing me (literally). EST was giving me chills. I sure did underestimate EST. The questions which came out were twist and turn. There are 2 answers and we are suppose to choose the more appropriate one. So, difficult. Thank goodness it's only 30 questions of objective.
By the way, have you guys heard of FLY.fm? This radio station is quite nice to listen to. In Ipoh, it's 87.9 and Fly Guy is DJing. They play nice songs. Not hard rock. Something soothing for the soul. *What am I crapping? Okay then, that's a wrap. =)

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

16..

Yup I'm 16 today. Sweet 16.. My 16th year walking and living in this world. However, that doesn't mean I get my freedom of going out partying or anything. It's more to one day break from studying since it's exam season. Let's flashback to this morning. I went to school FREAKING out about Chem. paper 3. That was when I stepped into the class. Then, a group of friends who were sitting near my sit wished me. I was SHOCKED. I was never close to them and they knew. Impressed, I sure was. I looked at Asha and she showed this grin. I was PUZZLED and I knew something was up. As I turn to put down my file (I didn't bring a bag today), I realised that something was written on the blackboard. It was written,
"To Esther,
Happy Birthday!
From, You know who"
Indeed, she is a mysterious person. So, I rubbed it off, BLUSHING. My morning was a little ruined until recess. Why? Well, I totally FORGOTTEN about aras meniskus and read the wrong thing even though I always answer it correctly in objective questions. The next thing was History which was a total turn off. I have no idea but I was able to answer at least half of it. As I mentioned, I am ready to fail History even though I still have a tiny little HOPE.. Right. After recess, I headed back to class.
Lena asked me out to find Pn. Murizan. So, I followed her. We headed to the library with Suhaida. Then, we found her MISSING. Feeling lazy to stay in the library for a long time, Suhaida and I went back to class. As we were walking towards the classroom, I saw Asha PEEKING. Again, I knew something was up her sleeves. One step into the class, my day turned down side up. What happened? She got the class to sing for me. Flabbergasted I was. I was beginning to doubt if Lena asked me out to lure me from the class. Only God knows. LOL..
What did I get today? I got cheese cake and dinner from my parents, 2 bars of chocalate from Asha, testimonials (from Jared, Jasmine, Melissa), telephone calls and a class singing. This year's one is memorable. THANKS you guys for remembering.. I really REALLY appreciate it.
Adieu...

Monday, October 03, 2005

Complains and more..


I took this on Friday night when I watched FLIGHTPLAN with my brother. That's him.
Serious things to type now...
Exams exams and more exams.. I don't think I can hold on any longer. This stress is just getting to me. I'm surprised I even survive until the second week. Only 6 more days to go. Actually I'm more worried about the subjects tomorrow and on Wednesday. The combination is not really good (for me). What's even sad for me is that Moral just isn't my kind of thing. It's boring even though we apply them in our daily routine. What I don't like about moral? It's that students have to memorise all 36 values with the definition. The definition MUST NOT have any mistakes. I'm not the kind of person who has a good memory.
Physics? I'm getting confused with Chapter 4 where the 'rumus' is the same as this and also the same as that but it's not like that. Instead, it's like this. Something confusing.. Get me? But out there, there are geniuses or should I say fast learners. I am a late bloomer and I know that for a fact that what I learnt beginning of the year, I understand it now. What I've learnt lately? It goes into my tiny brain for a moment and then, it's gone. Pooff!!
I don't have the will to study anymore for this term. There's distraction (the laptop, tv, special day) Yet, I'm holding on. I don't want to fail. NEVER EVER even though in life there are failures and achievements. At least I know that if I excel for this term, I still have hope to do better next year. Bio today wasn't that bad. I crapped a few answers. It's not like I have an option or something. Better to try your luck than not to.
Going through Form 4, I realised that I tend to complain more often but it's weird that I only type my feelings out here. Blogging is one way of me expressing to the world. No one to object what I feel and what I think. Going through Form 4, there had been conflicts between me and my friends. Not only my schoolmates but also from other schools whom I have never met before and accused me of something. Going through Form 4, I wish I appreciated my childhood back then when I was in primary school. I enjoyed my Form 3 life and never had regretted a bit.
After Wednesday, I'm free from stress even though exams are still on. There will be paper 1s' for all three science subjects, EST and Maths. I will be heading down to KL on Friday and will be staying there until Sunday. That leaves to 3 more days without internet but there will be SHOPPING! Yes, I do burn a hole in my parents pocket but not always. I'm rational enough to think that money is not easily earned and I should spend it wisely.
So, that's about it.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Clouds..

I'm back from Penang. That's why I haven't been blogging for the past 2 days. I nearly could not survive without internet. My brother knows. I went to the island on Saturday, to Gurney Plaza. I bought a pair of pants and a top from Esprit. Yeah, yeah I'm an Esprit freak. The truth is, Esprit is one of the only brands I could fit in. Why? Well, I don't have the body shape you see. Besides, other brands don't have my size or I don't look good in certain clothes. Am I really that fat? Well, no actually. I'm average but not always. I can be slender to my perfection and I may go overboard in putting on weight.
Tomorrow is Bio paper 2. 'Joy!!' not. My teacher taught Chapter 9&10 in 1 1/2 week. Not to mention that Chapter 9 is considered long. On my way back from Penang, feeling bored, I captured some pictures of clouds. I just love clouds. They come in all shapes and tone. I took in from inside the car. So, you may see some reflection. I'm not some pro in photography.
2 more days to Wednesday and I'm another year older. It will be my third year celebrating it with my family this year. Last year, a few (less than 5) remembered. I can't blame them. It was PMR. It's my luck that it falls during exams.



Chiaow..