Monday, December 26, 2005

Sleepy Head..

I woke up at 4.45pm today. I wanted to wish my dad a safe journey to KL this morning. Turned when I woke up, he came home safe. I wonder how I would ever be able to sleep tonight.

-end of story-

Sunday, December 25, 2005


I came back yesterday. I was in Johannesburg airport for approximately 5 hours. I had a "INTERESTING" experience. My family were one of the only Chinese at the check-in counter. I waited for my parents at the side while they checked in the luggage and boxes. Then, a Black man whom I believe to be the assistant to someone approached me. He talked to me like how Proffesor Snape talks. Our conversation is as shown below.
A: Good morning, ma'am.
Me: Good morning.
A: How are you today?
Me: I'm fine, thank you.
A: Where are you flying to?
Me: To Malaysia.
A: Can I see your passport please?
Me: Ermm..I don't have it. My parents do. They are over there by that counter (5 feet away)
A: They are your parents?
Me: Yes, over there. They have my passport.
A: Are you sure they are your parents?
Me: YES..

And there it was the conversation we had. Someone who actually asked me if I'm sure my parents are my parents.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

My Personal Thoughts..

Here I am packing half of my things. Today was the last day (most likely) I met my friends and so many memories I shared with them. I’m sure I am going to miss them. I feel like I’m a part of a big family and I’m going back home… Like I said in my last post, I hope to come back again.
South Africa is a good place to live in. It’s only the poverty issue that’s going on but the government is working on it. People who are living in South Africa are considered blessed but no matter where we live in, we are also considered bless because we have a shelter.
7 of us including me went to watch ‘Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire’. Jeshan traveled 6 hours from Johannesburg all the way to Durban just to catch a movie with me and the others. As a result, he got a fine of R400 (RM240) for speeding at 145mph when the speed limit was suppose to be 120mph. Thank goodness he reached safely. It was a pretty cool day and I wished that this day would not come to an end. Perhaps I should bring back the friendly culture. I have learned to open up, speak up, listen, and build my own character. I have learned so much that I can’t list them down.
The people I want to thank would be the Durban Mahikari Youth Group for showing me the right way, the path towards God. If it wasn’t for them, I would still continue to be a failure and not change. I hope to spread the Light to the youth, grow spiritually as well as being a God-centered person. I guess missing this year’s jamboree was worth it after all. Yet, I doubt my will to stay how I am now for a long time. So, yeah… That’s about it.

Monday, December 12, 2005

Missing Durban..

Another 12 days and I’m going back. I don’t want to leave Durban so fast. If only time would go slower or maybe holidays were to be a little longer. I hope I will be able to come back one day. It’s hard to keep in touch with my friends here because most of them do not have email and to call one another as well as sms one another is rather expensive. So, I will DEFINITELY miss them. Some said that they would come to Malaysia in December next year and join the jamboree (if permitted) with the other youth. I hope to go to Japan one day to train myself that is if I keep enough money and that would be long. I guess it would be after Form 6. Would I be able to keep enough money then?
Yesterday at the overnight training, trainees and senior youth were given a lecture (a talk) on the 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. Later that night, we were divided in groups of four and it was my luck that I became my team leader. Therefore, I was required to talk in front of everyone on the topic we were given. It wasn’t that bad. There were 8 people talking all together and there were some who are nervous but they did quite well. Leemalin and Prishen did quite well. They managed to get everyone’s attention as well as their jokes along the way.
I hope that I’ll pass my training to become Senior Youth by year 2007. Why not next year? Well, I have totally flung this year and taking everything for granted. I came to my senses that nothing comes easy. We have to work hard no matter how long it takes to reach the goal. I guess I gave up and thought that it was too long which is bad.

Saturday, December 10, 2005


It was raining earlier and I went to Suncoast Casino for dinner with my dad’s friend. I walked under the rain and it was cold. Now, I’m getting a flu and headache. There wasn’t any umbrella and the jacket I wore did not have a hood. I ate to my heart’s content and with no complaints, the food tastes pretty good. However, I still prefer the Malaysian type of buffet.
I went shopping with my mum today. Yes, I have been doing my Chinese New Year shopping because I won’t have time to do them next year. My whole of next year clothes includes 9 new t-shirts, 2 new pants and one skirt. I still wear back the clothes I bought this year. Some may go ‘Buy so much aah? This girl spends a lot of money.’ But the truth is, I have out-grown my clothes and I am having tuitions from Tuesday to Sunday. I am not a very bright student you see.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

More Crap..

"Life is full of ups and downs." That's what I remind myself whenever I'm sad. So many things happened. There are good things and also not so good things. Coming to South Africa taught me a lot of things. It reminds me of 'si tenggang's homecoming'. Here, I received my training to be a better person and it has directed me towards God. When I thought about leaving, I wonder when I'll return here. Durban is indeed a beautiful place. I moved to Toti yesterday which is also near the beach.
It's been a long time since I last post. I guess I wasn't enthusiastic enough. I went to a friend's house for dinner yesterday. I had a very long talk with her son. We talk about a lot of things (cartoons, movies, handphones, life, fear, music, etc.). I met him last month in an overnight training for youth.
As my brother is currently home with his friends, I wonder if he missed me. At least for two months, he is not tortured by me, right? So, I'll stop my crap here.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

My brother..

My little sis, always tagging behind.
Always in the way, gonna 'Tell' gonna 'Whine'!
My little sis, in my things and my way.
Her mouth always moving with nothing important to say.
My little sis, mom says be patient with her.
She'll grow up soon enough. I think it's a myth.
My little sis, always looked up to me.
I guess she never knew, it was her I envied.
My little sis, has the biggest heart of gold.
But don't tell her I said that,
Cuz her head will explode.
My little sis, has grown up it's true!
How she survived all my tortures,
Mystifies me! More than you!
My little sister,
you know it's still hard to say;
I love you, sis.
Can you loan me fifty ringgit till payday?

This was a testimonial from my brother and I am putting it up because I think he's a nice good brother which deserves some credits from me especially. I can't believe I actually like and get along well with my brother now. I loved arguing with him over nothing and making up in the end. It's weird I know. We hang out on the weekends and maybe go to the movies (treat's on his account), stay in MPH for a long time, window shopping for his and sometimes my clothes. He is pretty cool considering he is a doctor who dresses well (sunglasses, contact lense, stainless steel ring and other accessories). He gives me pocket money (RM100) a month which is so GOOD of him. RM50 to pay my handphone bill and another Rm50 for me to buy books and magazine. The remainder will go to my little piggy bank.
So, yeah. This is MY BROTHER.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

E630's gone..for now..

My beloved handphone (Samsung E630) officially stop breathing today. I’m sad and my temper is coming naturally. How did it happen? Let’s see. She has been dropped many times by different people. Now two most important buttons is not functioning. Without them, my handphone can’t operate. Why? It’s because the two buttons are the “Call” button and the “OK” button. Now, how am I supposed to key in my pin number and gain access? Sheesh kebab! She’s not even 1 year old yet and here I am in Africa with my mum’s handphone with no warranty here (back in Malaysia). I have to wait for another 3 to 4 weeks to get her functioning again. I guess I would have to wait by then. A doctor to give CPR and make her alive again. My mum’s handphone does not have a camera and it’s difficult for me to get use to it. Mine’s a slide and her handphone is a flip type. So, the menu and other stuff and different too. Get it? If you don't, don't bother cracking your head figuring it out.
So, *exhales* I am finished talking about my handphone but I hope out there, there would be someone or more than one person advising me on how to survive without Samsung E630.

p/s: Yes, I can’t survive without my Samsung E630.

Friday, December 02, 2005


I’ll talk about the disappointing one first. Lately, I felt that a friend of mine changed. Yes, I know that people do change and I feel very weird with the new changes. I felt as if she feels sad. Perhaps she has grown up. Whenever I read her posts in her blog, I feel as if it is difficult to communicate with her. I hope she would be able to find happiness in her life and blog about nice, happy, silly things or anything that’s not so negative like how she used too.
Next thing would be about the jamboree which my friend, Vishnu would be attending with the other youth. I’m going to miss it because I won’t be flying back in time for the jamboree. I guess that I just have to accept the fact that I’m in South Africa for a reason, for a mission. Everything is training and it seems like they are going to have tones of fun. Why? It’s held in Pahang, not in resorts but they are going to camp for 3 days. Youth from other parts of Asia (South East most probably) would be joining. It’s been two years I have been waiting for this one and looks like I have got to wait for one more year. Hopefully, I graduate to be a Senior Youth by then.
The happy thing is that I’m really enjoying myself here with the Durban Youth and I would have a heavy heart to leave them. But hey, we can still keep in touch through emails right? There’s nothing much to shop now. I have bought what I needed and some things here have reasonable prices. The next time I come (if I’m permitted), I guess I would bring along a youth or two from Ipoh and more money. LOL. I read this today and I wanted to share this with the girls.

Reasons Why A Bag Is Better Than A Boyfriend.
  • They’re both full of crap, but at least a handbag is useful
  • A handbag doesn’t complain when you make it carry your wallet, phone and lip gloss.
  • Your bag doesn’t care if it takes you hours to get ready.
  • A handbag won’t answer back!
  • Your handbag won’t complain if you take it to a party and leave it in the corner all night while you dance with your friends.
  • Your bad won’t play computer games for hours at a time.
  • You can use another girl’s handbag for a night without causing any trouble.
Good one right? Why need boyfriends when these type of relationship just waste your time, money and effort? =)

Monday, November 28, 2005

Grateful I am today..

25th of November was my brother’s birthday and he has no idea what I got for him. On the same day, I was traveling to Cape Town by bus to meet a VIP who I’m not sure if I’m allowed to disclose here. (We- about 40 over people) From Durban to Cape Town, we traveled for about 25hours 30 minutes in a 60 seats bus. It was long and uncomfortable but no complaints. Well, life is training when 45 seats booked to travel by flight dropped as in they couldn’t get seats for us because there was a problem with the airplane or something like that.
On the day we arrived, we attended the reception to meet the VIP. The next 2 days, we toured Table Mountain, Victoria Wharf, Flee Market and Robben Island (many went but I didn’t. It was too expensive.) The main thing about this post is this experience I had which made me very grateful that I’m alive today.
On our way back to Durban, we stopped for dinner (here they call it supper) at KFC. There are no whites there. Only the blacks live there. I don’t know how we ever got there. But, there we were enjoying some chicken and mashed potato. As there were so many of us, we took quite a long time there because the restaurant wasn’t big enough to accommodate all of us.
One of them approached one of our members (so called uncle) and nearly got into a fight. Apparently, they wanted food and money. We have been warned before to not give food or money because the others would come after you. Cruel we may seem but safety was and still is our top priority.
The uncle came up the bus and told us that the blacks were going to gather their people to surround the bus. They were going to carry bricks and throw it at the bus window. We were terrified. Moreover, it was night time and it was dark. We were going to call security but we were afraid that they might not come in time. More of them came and they were gathering at one corner. The longer we stayed there scarier it was.
All of us were praying hard to God. Thank goodness at that time, policemen were patrolling the area and that saved us because when the policemen came, the group of people went away to another petrol station.
In a nick of time, we were able to leave the place. Thank God for the wonderful divine arrangement. All those who wanted to go to the toilet had to wait for another 1 hour or more because the next stop was 51km away.
Back to where I saw cruel we may be. Here, small kids without proper education are trained to snatch chains, beg for food and money, pickpocket and so on as we were told. At the flee market, a child about 8-10 years old came asking for money and we refused to give. In the end we gave in and gave about 50cents. That was how much of shilling we had. The rest were 10 cents and 1 cent. He became furious and asked for more about R20. He walked behind us for a distance and started shouting. Hurriedly, my parents and I pick up our pace to the bus.
So, after these two experiences, I love my life more than ever. Back home I haven’t seem how precious life was but now it’s different. “Nothing in this world is bad. Bad exists to make humans differentiate it from good.” I read it from somewhere which I don’t remember. They lead a hard life and had to survive.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

part of Durban MYG

Sorry for not updating for quite some time. I have been busy with overnight training here and stuff. I got to know from a friend that she has been visiting this blog everyday because she missed me. Aaww... that's sweet.. I'm touched! *giggle.. This is a very small part of the Durban youth. From left is Jashon, Carmen, me, Sagren, and someone whom I forgotten the name. I'm not sure about how the spelling of the name but that's how it is pronounced. They are very nice people and I'm sure I'm going to miss them when I'm back in Malaysia which would be on 23rd Dec. School is going to reopen soon and time is flying faster than ever. I haven't bought my books, my uniform (I've grown fatter) and stationeries (I'm always out of erasers). There's a week or more for me to catch up with time, to catch up with 6 hours. Life is full of challenges.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Y i like Christmas...

I don’t celebrate Christmas but there are certain things I like about it…

Christmas trees
Christmas carols
Santa Claus
The Decorations

The weather has been cold lately due to the strong wind. Only yesterday I saw a couple of small birds trying to fly when the wind blew and they moved backwards even though they were flapping their wings trying to go forward.
Nothing much to write for now. I’ll write more next time. TTFN.

Monday, November 07, 2005

At the Safari...

This is my third time writing this. For the past couple of days, my internet line hasn’t been connecting well. Therefore, after every post I finish typing, I would automatically go offline which gets me fed up.
I went to the safari today. There were vegetarian animals there but also a couple of meat-eaters like eagles. It was nice. I checked out the giraffes, zebras, rhinos, birds and quite a number of animals. What I found interesting were the birds with long tail feathers. From far, they look like FAIRIES. I was amazed myself when I saw them flying everywhere. I actually believed that I was looking at an actual fairy! Too bad I couldn’t snap a picture of it. It’s too small and always fly away when I am about to snap a picture of it.
Then, there were flying ants. From far it looks like plague but actually, they are just ants. I was told that there are people who catch these ants, fry them with butter and then, eat them. Eeww disgusting…I know.
It’s just fascinating seeing all these animals and they are not condemned to a space like in the zoo. They run freely to anywhere they want. Some might say that they are in heaven because there is an unlimited amount of food and there aren’t any predators to hunt them. It is something like a forest reserve.
It’s fascinating..... =)

p/s: 9.20pm in SA

Wednesday, November 02, 2005


I haven't been online these few days and I guess nobody misses me right? Oh well.. So, it's been one week I'm here and 7 weeks to go. Suddenly, I'm eager to go to school but I'm not ready for SPM. I'm waiting patiently to go to tuition and study. These few days I went to shopping malls and to the beach. I pass my days watching tv and a little bit of reading. Malay novels and a book "LUCKY FORTUNE" by Seizan Fukami. This book talks about how you can change your luck and guardian spirits.
I bought a few dream-catcher as souveniors for my friends. It comes in different sizes and colours. What do you think if I get for a boy if the colour is light brown? Guys, do you think it's girlish? For those of you whom haven't heard of it before, it is to be hung above you when you sleep. The dream-catcher traps nightmares and allows the good dreams to go to you. Once in a week, you have to shake the dream-catcher There is a movie about it too but I didn't have the chance to watch it.

Friday, October 28, 2005

Shop till you drop..

mood: missing Malaysia

I haven't been posting for two days -I think. So, I've been busy. I went shopping with my mum and things here can be said expensive. However, if you convert the price to RM, then, you won't find it that expensive. I would say that it is reasonable except certain things-clothes, shoes, accesories. ROXY here is cheaper compared to Malaysia. My mum bought me 3 shirts. I'm not much of a ROXY fan but if it fits you, the price is reasonable and unique, why not? Besides that, I went to LIZZARD (I know, weird name) to get a pair of pants. The shopping malls here can be compared to MidValley. It's big, and there are MANY shops. Shop till you drop!
I had Chinese food yesterday. I was thinking of Nasi Lemak and I am missing Malaysian food. Curry, Chee Cheong Fan and Tom Yam. Mmm.... The warm weather and the people. I'm going to appreciate everything when I get back there. One more thing I will appreciate is plastic bags. Why? Over here, when you buy your groceries, they charge you R0.30 for each plastic bag- RM0.18. This is to reduce pollution because when people throw plastic bags, they (plastic bags) might end up on the roads, in the water. The animals will eat it and they die. So, everywhere you go, you see people carrying a green bag to put in their groceries. The bag costs R5 = RM3. But you can reuse it. So, it's more worth it.

This is Pavillion from the side view. It is a shopping mall.

Pavillion from the front view.


Tuesday, October 25, 2005

How to turn on the light..

It's 7.30am but in Malaysia, it's 1.35pm. I woke up and looked outside. It was raining. Yesterday was 17*C (sorry I couldn't find the degree) and after watching the weather forecast, it was suppose to be 19*C. I guess today is going to be colder than yesterday. I feet were apparently freezing. The dark clouds seemed to be blown towards the land. The sea looked larger than usual (it seemed but how could it be?) I noticed that the students here walk to school. Whether they wear uniforms, I'm not sure. They wear a sweater due to the coldness. One of them waved at me and it would be inpolite to not wave back. So, I took the courtesy and wave. He smiled and continued his journey up the hill.
They don't use switches that turns on the light. Weird but..Hmm, see for yourself.

Notice the chain? Well, there are two chains. One is for the fan, the other is for the light.

After pulling the chain,............................

Walaahh, you have the light! Amazing, isn't it? <.<

Monday, October 24, 2005

SA pics..

So, here I am in South Africa. Temparature here is nearly the same as Cameron Highlands. Pretty cold when it is windy and it is summer now. So far, I haven't been to many places but hopefully I will. I was meddling with my brother's digital camera. Snapping pictures here and there. Let me show you.

My dream bedroom. Why? Because it is beside the window.

From the window of the bedroom. You see plants. Up there is the carpark. Weird..

I'm staying on the ground floor. So, I wouldn't call it balcony. This is the view outside the house.

After zooming, you can see the sea! Nice isn't it to live near the sea.
My pictures seem okay to me but some may think that it's blur. Hey, I'm not a professional like Jasmine yet. Hmm, that's all for now.

Saturday, October 22, 2005


mood: nutz

I had Japanese food for lunch. Bloated. Finally, I have come to my senses. Not all yet, recovering from mental stress. LOL. I'm going fanatic. I bought a book entitled "Being A Happy Teenager". I love it so much. Initially, I thought of bringing along RM50 with me because my mum says that our purse must always have money so that in future, we have money. I resisted everything which tempted me to spend money on. Besides that was my last RM50 note for this month. Then, my brother showed me the book and I couldn't resist anymore. I had to get the book. There goes my money.
It feels good buying books with your own money. It made me treasure my books. Since I don't have any activities nowaadays, I don't know what to talk about. Short posts for now and I hope you guys will like the song I put up.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Violence in the air?

mood: violence but trying to control

This is my new blog address. Why did I change it? Well, I want to stop certain people from visiting this place. Redunden but history is repeating over and over again. As usual it is frienemies. Earlier, I chatted on MSN with a friend over his depression. Then, I realised that he is facing the similar situation as me. Anyway, one of my frienemies didn't attend school today. She was online just now. So happen, I checked her Physics paper today. So, I told her the marks she got. I don't know why but she went all cold on me. She asked me why my MSN nickname was similar to hers. It was like this...

Nothing is [SOUND]>Why is it that your nickname is like mine?
FREE[dom]>> Oh really? Yeah horr.. I didn't realise it.. (which I truthfully didn't)

I can predict that tomorrow, she'll go to school to tell other people about it and there goes the gossiping in my class again. I hate my class, friends, school.. But I will never hate my teachers. I have have decided to turn over a new leaf. And this time, it's for good. It is because of you that I am who I am today, what I think now. "Friends is the biggest influence". Now, I believe it is true.
In school, I feel like an outcast. Everyone's ego is getting to their head. They don't seem to accept what I think. Like I've posted in last time's post, they only think that they are right. I'm getting sick of this. I will after all get better friends than them in the future. They are just ruining my life with their innocent stories. They should bear in mind that I'm not the one who failed more than 2 subjects and did badly. I'm not saying that I did well but if someone can be egoistic because he or she failed and has been passing words around, that's too much.
This is the end of G-Unit. One day, they should experience how it would be like to be in my shoes. Maybe I was brought up in a different way compared to them. It is not my lose that I loose them. It's my lose that I'm hurt by them. This is training. Damn it..

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Feel like crap..

mOOd: Crap.. HAha

"Guess who's back. Back again"-Eminem

It was boring in school today. No teachers, no homework, nothing. It's good but then, I feel understressed (stress because there is nothing to do). That's good. I was playing 'Need For Speed Underground 2' for past few days and it's a little tough for me. I'm not addicted to it though. Well, I'm a girl and I don't have the skills.
Nowadays, I don't know what to blog about. My daily routine is nearly the same. Come home, have lunch and SLEEP. Precious sleep until 5 something. I can really sleep. There was once when I slept around 11 something pm and woke up around 4 pm the next day. It is the dreaming part which I love. Yes, I love to dream.
Right now, I'm enjoying the honeydew which I got with my mum at Econsave. I picked it and it's not sweet. You might guessed it right. I don't know how to choose. HaHA... But hey, it still has vitamins right? There is 4 more days until I leave for South Africa. Until then, I'm not sure if I will be able to go online. I hope so. I'll post some pictures here.
There, I'll be going to the safari. Have lunch with giraffe, lions and elephants. Have dinner with sharks.. Nah.. I'm just kidding. If I were to have dinner with the sharks, I'm the food. Maybe then, I'll apply the 'Fish are food, not friends' rule. LOL...
During tuition today, Joo Ztat and I were trying to rule over the spaces. Well, you see, there wasn't enough space on the table and I was sitting at the side. My hand and his hand came to one junction and we were putting force. The result: both our writing were terrible. LOL...We were laughing about it through out the class.
He's become nicer to me compared to early of the year. Maybe because he has a girlfriend now. So, he learns to treat people nicer. But then sometimes, arguing with him is also fun. I know it's weird but I like arguing with him. I finally got to talk to someone after a year knowing him. After we finished the work which Mr. Mano gave us and also after marking other people's paper, we had to return the paper to the rightful owner. Then, he called out, " Esther, pass the paper to the front." I'm suprised he even knows my name and asked me to add him in friendster.

>.< Hungry... Nuts..

mood: nuts

My afternoon sleep was at 5 something and I woke up around 9pm. Yup, I missed dinner. I got back my English results in school today and screwed it. I guess I have moved on and couldn't care less about my results but of course next year is a "crucial" year. I've put up a new song and I hope you guys would like it. There is also a song request going on. Since I think it's kind of boring having you guys to listen to the same song over and over again, you can decide for what you want to listen to. I'll put up the song if it's available. Anyone heard of 'Let The Music Heal Your Soul' by Aaron Carter feat. BSB,`N Sync,The Moffatts,The Boyz,Touche? I really like the song but I can't find the code for it. If you have other websites that gives music codes, tag the website in the cbox. I have searched in and but the song is not there. So far, I love Daniel Powter-Bad Day. If you want to continue listening to him, sure, no prob.
I bought a Hari Raya Card for RM10 today. Ouch! Yeah.. it's for my last year's BM teacher. I really like her. She's so kind and open-minded. This year, we rarely see each other but yeah, we still talk. A couple of times in a full moon. If only she continued to teach until upper secondary. What is there to be done in school now since exams over? *YAWNN... I bought a Malay novel today. My teacher said that I should read novels to improve my BM. So, that's it for today... I'm hungry now..

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Random feelings and thoughts...

mood: sad and hatred (related)


Well, first I want to say that I spend my afternoon writing two reports because some secretary was to lazy to write. The treasurer wasn't collecting any money for the Cheerleading Farewell Party. Yes, it's nearly end of the year and we haven't hold the farewell for the Form 5s'. Teacher has been coming after me for the club accounts and the plans for the Farewell. Thank goodness that she'll be away for three days starting on Wednesday. My friends weren't any good. I called them like numerous times but they didn't answer.
Anyway, I want to talk about what kind of people I hate. I have mentioned a little in my earlier post. Back-stabbers, gossipers, calling other people names and thinking they are the greatest person on earth. Self praise is no praise. I learnt that from my friend. Constantly, I always remind myself not to praise myself. But then it seems that, the phrase has been twisted to 'self praise is all praise'. I've got to admit her creativity to change the phrase.
"People change." Yeah, and I feel that she turned her back on me too many times. Always I have been sad, crushed like a bug, talking about it in this blog. Now, I still try to open up to her but abruptly, she slams that window or door. I'm pretty disappointed. I don't want her to be my frienemy and it seems that every friend who I was close with in school is becoming my frienemy and I don't want that to happen.
I know she's a good influence. I understand her but there are some times that she don't understand me. All my life, I have tried to work hard, get good results and please my parents. I don't want to let their hopes so high fall just like that. I still have to take care of them when I grow up and I have to find a career which can promise me a good life so that my parents don't need to suffer.
Some people don't understand that. Being the youngest in the family is a pressure. Youngest in the family are usually compared to the other siblings and that's not a very wise thing. Green-eyed monster of jealousy might ust get to him/her. Feeling things are unfair to them. Back to the topic, I don't like people who think that they are they are the only one facing the situation. Like HELLO!! , people don't tell out their problems, now do they? I feel like I'm the only facing problems because I tell and always hope for a solution.


What I do when I'm sad...
Blog, draw, listen to music, reflect on myself, play PC games, talk to a friend, cry? (that's normal.. girls do that), be anti-social, talk to my conscience (here I'm nutz) = analyzing what went wrong, on the net, shopping, ICE CREAM!!, eat, feed a lot of food the fish (I used to.. now the fishes are gone and NO, they didn't die because I fed them too much, it was lack of oxygen), chocolate... =)

mood: sleepy

I went to Parade today with my family to have lunch and did some shopping for my brother. I experienced something which I have experienced before. It all happened when we made our orders. I ordered for 'Trail Chicken' and my dad ordered for 'Black Pepper Chicken'. When our food arrived, the waitress repeated the name of the food. Mine turned out to be 'Tradisional Chicken' where as my dad's turned out to be 'BBQ Chicken'. Then, I had a flashback to the beginning of the year when I asked for a 'Honey Peach' drink. The person gave me a Honeydew drink. Ahh.. The English language..Just by pronouncing it wrongly, you get a total new meaning.*Yawnn..

I think I'm going to stop here before I crap on and on... =)

Friday, October 14, 2005

Oh yeah.. uh-huh..


Teacher didn't come into class today. So, I made a friendship band for myself because I was bored. What happened to my friends? They joined allies with my frienemies. Nah.. I think I have become more anti-social in class. I don't know why but I can't stand people who think that they are the greatest (most popular, most beautiful, most nearly perfect) one of all. They act like beauty queens and it attracted a lot of people's attention including the teachers. *sigh I can't really comment on that. This is after all a hypocritical world.
I just discover the other part of the class who are more friendly and they don't judge others. They asked me for my email and if I have a friendster account not forgetting my blog URL. That make me feel remembered. When I come to think about it, I feel as though I have a split personality. I don't know why. I'm not me when I'm with my friends. It's something like I'm a wacky nutz case person. When I face my laptop or at home with my family or close friends, I feel like myself.
I often remind myslef about 'si tenggang's homecoming' where he learnt about humility and how the rich talks and the poem 'If'. So many probabilities but impossible to fulfill all. It's not a must though. This year, I learnt the meaning of challenges in life when I fell drastically in what something I didn't expect to hit me. I learnt to be grateful-to appreciate my family, friends-I guess that's why I never wanted to give up on any of them unless they give up on me.

mood: peaceful

My English teacher added 4 marks for my English paper 1 (the one which has objective, summary, lit, info transfer). That made my day. Now, I have 64/75. It's not that good considering I lost 11 marks but then again, nobody's perfect and my standards are considered high to certain people. My teacher said that only one girl got A1 for essay section (paper 2). That of course isn't me. That really worries me. I have no idea on how to face my parents (my dad especially) with a B3 or worse. I think I shouldn't have include in colloquials into my essay. For a second, I don't think my teacher knows a single thing I'm writing about.
Now, I have a new interest. I don't think I'll involve myself into DotA. I think I would prefer Need For Speed. Now I have to brush up my 'skills'. Hehe.. Well, I have forgotten how to control the keys especially when it comes to an angle, it seems that I would always bang the side and overturn the car. *sigh... I hope I can do this soon and well enough because I'm planning to get Need For Speed-Underground. That's right! =)

'Friends' NOT..

Mood: Sleepy and a lil' rebellious... =)

Class was damn noisy today. My classmate said something sensitive to another friend of mine, which was I'm not allowed to touch her things because I am her enemy. Ouch! I mean, excuse mua, she scores higher than me in practically every single subject there is. I don't even know the cause. One thing I hate is people hating me without me knowing the cause. It's as though all the fault is on me. I exaggerate but I don't brag on and on about my lousy exam marks. I do congratulate other people for getting higher than me. I don't stop talking to my friend for getting higher than me. This is currently how other people is treating me in class.
A friend (to me) is someone who is always there to help, guide and support us when we are in trouble. Now, I can say history may be repeating itself. *sigh Why does all this need to take place? As though life isn't full of ups and downs enough. 'A friend' backstabs, gossips about me and thinks I don't have a single clue about it. I don't know why I have been so nice. I'm not saying that it's bad to be nice but being too nice is just the same as cutting your nose to spite your face. They take advantage (like I may have mentioned earlier). What "FRIENDS".
How I felt in school today is the same as how I felt when my friends girlfriend misunderstood me thinking I have this so-called special relationship with her boyfriend. What was worst was that she spreaded this thing in a forum. I was damn mad. But then again, she's the one who is sensitive and is putting the blame that I ruined her relationship which I didn't. To forgive and forget is not an easy task.
There is no use of me complaining right? It won't get me any further. Gossiping and backstabbing won't make me feel any better but what my class don't understand is how I feel. I just want to express myself. They Complain, Critisize and then, Condemn. Three Cs'. Because I can't express through my speech, I can only type about it and feel so much better than keeping it inside. I love writing in this blog because I know that there are people who reads this, who understands a dilemma of a senior high school student.
Thanks again you guys who have been visiting my blog especially my brother (Well, I knid of force him to read it everyday, but sometimes he willingly reads them).

Wednesday, October 12, 2005


I so have learnt my lesson this time. Even so, I don't know what went wrong. Anyway, I've decided to turn a new leaf. Hopefully, I will manage to do so for the better or else I am going to regret. By that time, it's no use crying over spilt milk, right? After the results I've gotten back, I was disappointed as well. I mean, who wouldn't be? These are some of the people whom I talked to and what they said:
Pn. Tan- You need to be more focused. Like Donald Trump once said, if you want to be successful, you need to be focused and pay attention to what is being said. You must do a lot of excercise to excel in your studies. One thing Esther that I was shocked, I did not expect you to get this marks for you EST. What happened? I was looking forward to see your marks and there it is. I've seen you grow. You were in my lessons since you were in Form 2 and that time I must say, you were like jackal (<.<) . But lucky thing you became more matured within these two years or else I don't know what to do with you. It's alright to fall in Form 4. Many students experience the same thing. Soon, you'll realise your mistake and stand again.
Mr. Mano- People don't always get what they want. I know you are a good student. I've seen how you do your work in my class. Don't give up. If you don't do well, you must continue trying. You know what your mistakes are now, don't you? Then, you must improve. Be strong.When you fall, you must stand. Ok?
My Dad- You must always mantain cleanliness. When your surroundings' not clean, you attract negativity. When you come home, you must read what you have learnt. Don't spend so much time on tv and on the net. Don't chat online so much (I don't). What's the point of me sending you to tuition when you can't get good results for me? You must think of your future.
My Mum- Esther, you must prove to us that you can do well for you SPM. Mix with those who you think can help you. Don't worry about others. Some friends can just drag you down and ruin your future. Be wise when you choose your friends. Now you know what you have done wrong, fix it. Don't wait until too late.
There you have it, 'teguran' I got from 2 teachers and my parents. I've got to admit that what they said is true. If it wasn't for Mr. Mano, I will still be having depression now. He brought me back on track after I 'terpesong' so much. I'm so thankful to have him as my Bio teacher.
If you have any advice to add, please do so. Until then..

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Daniel Powter Lyrics...

Daniel Powter-Bad Day

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

Add. Maths...History.. Mod Maths..

Stunned and speechless for a moment
Stared blankly, not a movement
Never have I gotten marks so low
Guess I've got to go with the flow.

Hearing others getting an 'A'
"Wah, good lah.." they say
Deceived again, I'm tired already
Don't want to believe, I'm not ready.

No more will to study
Looks like Maths skills have turned rusty
I envy those who scored high
I'm disappointed.. I want to cry.

I've tried my beset yet not satisfied
Heart attacked, I nearly died... <-- (literally)
Screw the papers, it's over and done
Let bygones be bygones.

I gotten back 3 papers which were add maths, mod maths, and history. Two out of three were simply terrible which no words could explain. Maybe my standards are high but I'm very disappointed in myself especially for add maths (like in the poem). I've predicted my History marks which I think I deserved to get. This song now is just the song for my situation now. *sigh.. High school life this is...

Monday, October 10, 2005


I think I'm MAD writing poetry....
Letting my thoughts wander; be free
Perhaps I was influenced by Jared Ee.....
Reading his pieces inspired me..

There was Mod Maths and Chemistry
I FELT stressed and misery....
Exams are now over, 'HURRAY!'
'FREEDOM HERE I COME' shall I say?

Boy, is this difficult to rhyme..??
So LITTLE written, took so MUCH time
Certified nuts but I feel gay
My ever first masterpiece....... 'YAY!'

3 stanzas ok for a first timer? Well, I doubt if I would ever write another one again. I realised that you need a wide range of vocabulary to keep the rhyming scheme on and it's obvious that I don't. I took nearly 3 hours brainstorming of how to make this a little more interesting. Jared's poem became my guideline of writing. I must admit that this one does not have any hidden meaning (isi tersirat) and it is short.
Life is good after exams. Finally, I'm back to my normal life of when I'm allowed to watch tv the whole day and surf the internet 24/7 with a limit of course. Tata for now.. Until next time.. =)

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Back and aching...

YUP! I am back from KL. Seems like my shopping for clothes became shopping for accessories. I went to 1 Utama and MidValley yesterday and back to 1 Utama again today. The hunting for clothes started in around noon and ended around 8 something in the evening. Boy, do my leg hurts! I hope I can still walk around school tomorrow -exaggerating-.
I got 3 pairs of earings from a cultural exhibition, 1 handbag which came with a free red purse and a pair of earings from MOMOE. This afternoon, I got a sleeveless shirt and a handbag from Levi's. Some may think that I spend a lot of money but nah.. What I bought was with a reasonable price. I don't go for t-shirts that's a few hundred bucks even though there is a peribahasa 'alah membeli menang terpakai'. I went to FCUK (French Connection UK) -don't berfikiran serong- and wohhh.. the price gave stopped my heart for a second. But then again, it's the quality of the material that we are paying for.
Tomorrow is the last day of my endterm and I'm free from suffering (this year only). I so can't wait for tomorrow...

Friday, October 07, 2005

Wat da ya think?

Ok. As some of you would realise, I added something to this. It is the WELCOME sign. It's so cute and it has the right size. Other signs were too big. Tell me what you think about it aite?If you think that it's not suitable, I'll try to find another one that is more suitable. For those of you who might want to know Hopefully.. I got a hair cut today. Finally!

I found this when I was surfing the net. Funny.. Don't you think? I editted my friendster background and now I'm in love with it. If only I know how to insert it here. It looks like the MATRIX. I also love the song. Click Five- Just The Girl.

I don't know why I have nothing to blog about today. I'm crapping away... Since I have nothing to write, I'll stop here then..~Tata...

Thursday, October 06, 2005

BM? Pantun?

Exams going to be over in 2 days. I am not so stressed now. Actually I'm slumber now. Watching TV, blogging, friendstering, chatting and stuff. I will be heading to KL on Saturday morning and will be returning on Sunday. Monday is the end of my suffering! Nah.. Anyway, I felt kind of offended today by my BM teacher. She was marking our testpapers and I asked her when she would be returning it to us. Then, she replied, "Ah, Esther. Saya sudah mark kertas kamu. Karangan kamu ada terlalu banyak pantun. Saya baca hingga ia membosankan saya. Saya rasa kamu patut mengembangkan isi kamu. Bukan menulis pantun. Bahasa kamu ok. Hanya saya rasa isi kamu.. Sangat sayang sahaja. Terpaksalah saya beri kamu markah yang lebih kurang sedikit."
Now, I made 4 pantun. 2 for the first question and another 2 for the second question. I was encouraged by my tuition teacher to write pantun. Not to many for each karangan. According to him, writing pantun and inserting peribahasa is a use of language. There is no wrong in writing pantun for essays. Besides that, he also added that not many would take the liberty to create pantun.
I think that's true. In my class, as far as I'm concerned, I'm the only one who wrote pantun. Arrghh.. I don't want to think about BM. I am near to my freedom. Will I excel to Sc1 , remain or go down to Sc3? AH, the suspens is killing me (literally). EST was giving me chills. I sure did underestimate EST. The questions which came out were twist and turn. There are 2 answers and we are suppose to choose the more appropriate one. So, difficult. Thank goodness it's only 30 questions of objective.
By the way, have you guys heard of This radio station is quite nice to listen to. In Ipoh, it's 87.9 and Fly Guy is DJing. They play nice songs. Not hard rock. Something soothing for the soul. *What am I crapping? Okay then, that's a wrap. =)

Wednesday, October 05, 2005


Yup I'm 16 today. Sweet 16.. My 16th year walking and living in this world. However, that doesn't mean I get my freedom of going out partying or anything. It's more to one day break from studying since it's exam season. Let's flashback to this morning. I went to school FREAKING out about Chem. paper 3. That was when I stepped into the class. Then, a group of friends who were sitting near my sit wished me. I was SHOCKED. I was never close to them and they knew. Impressed, I sure was. I looked at Asha and she showed this grin. I was PUZZLED and I knew something was up. As I turn to put down my file (I didn't bring a bag today), I realised that something was written on the blackboard. It was written,
"To Esther,
Happy Birthday!
From, You know who"
Indeed, she is a mysterious person. So, I rubbed it off, BLUSHING. My morning was a little ruined until recess. Why? Well, I totally FORGOTTEN about aras meniskus and read the wrong thing even though I always answer it correctly in objective questions. The next thing was History which was a total turn off. I have no idea but I was able to answer at least half of it. As I mentioned, I am ready to fail History even though I still have a tiny little HOPE.. Right. After recess, I headed back to class.
Lena asked me out to find Pn. Murizan. So, I followed her. We headed to the library with Suhaida. Then, we found her MISSING. Feeling lazy to stay in the library for a long time, Suhaida and I went back to class. As we were walking towards the classroom, I saw Asha PEEKING. Again, I knew something was up her sleeves. One step into the class, my day turned down side up. What happened? She got the class to sing for me. Flabbergasted I was. I was beginning to doubt if Lena asked me out to lure me from the class. Only God knows. LOL..
What did I get today? I got cheese cake and dinner from my parents, 2 bars of chocalate from Asha, testimonials (from Jared, Jasmine, Melissa), telephone calls and a class singing. This year's one is memorable. THANKS you guys for remembering.. I really REALLY appreciate it.

Monday, October 03, 2005

Complains and more..

I took this on Friday night when I watched FLIGHTPLAN with my brother. That's him.
Serious things to type now...
Exams exams and more exams.. I don't think I can hold on any longer. This stress is just getting to me. I'm surprised I even survive until the second week. Only 6 more days to go. Actually I'm more worried about the subjects tomorrow and on Wednesday. The combination is not really good (for me). What's even sad for me is that Moral just isn't my kind of thing. It's boring even though we apply them in our daily routine. What I don't like about moral? It's that students have to memorise all 36 values with the definition. The definition MUST NOT have any mistakes. I'm not the kind of person who has a good memory.
Physics? I'm getting confused with Chapter 4 where the 'rumus' is the same as this and also the same as that but it's not like that. Instead, it's like this. Something confusing.. Get me? But out there, there are geniuses or should I say fast learners. I am a late bloomer and I know that for a fact that what I learnt beginning of the year, I understand it now. What I've learnt lately? It goes into my tiny brain for a moment and then, it's gone. Pooff!!
I don't have the will to study anymore for this term. There's distraction (the laptop, tv, special day) Yet, I'm holding on. I don't want to fail. NEVER EVER even though in life there are failures and achievements. At least I know that if I excel for this term, I still have hope to do better next year. Bio today wasn't that bad. I crapped a few answers. It's not like I have an option or something. Better to try your luck than not to.
Going through Form 4, I realised that I tend to complain more often but it's weird that I only type my feelings out here. Blogging is one way of me expressing to the world. No one to object what I feel and what I think. Going through Form 4, there had been conflicts between me and my friends. Not only my schoolmates but also from other schools whom I have never met before and accused me of something. Going through Form 4, I wish I appreciated my childhood back then when I was in primary school. I enjoyed my Form 3 life and never had regretted a bit.
After Wednesday, I'm free from stress even though exams are still on. There will be paper 1s' for all three science subjects, EST and Maths. I will be heading down to KL on Friday and will be staying there until Sunday. That leaves to 3 more days without internet but there will be SHOPPING! Yes, I do burn a hole in my parents pocket but not always. I'm rational enough to think that money is not easily earned and I should spend it wisely.
So, that's about it.

Sunday, October 02, 2005


I'm back from Penang. That's why I haven't been blogging for the past 2 days. I nearly could not survive without internet. My brother knows. I went to the island on Saturday, to Gurney Plaza. I bought a pair of pants and a top from Esprit. Yeah, yeah I'm an Esprit freak. The truth is, Esprit is one of the only brands I could fit in. Why? Well, I don't have the body shape you see. Besides, other brands don't have my size or I don't look good in certain clothes. Am I really that fat? Well, no actually. I'm average but not always. I can be slender to my perfection and I may go overboard in putting on weight.
Tomorrow is Bio paper 2. 'Joy!!' not. My teacher taught Chapter 9&10 in 1 1/2 week. Not to mention that Chapter 9 is considered long. On my way back from Penang, feeling bored, I captured some pictures of clouds. I just love clouds. They come in all shapes and tone. I took in from inside the car. So, you may see some reflection. I'm not some pro in photography.
2 more days to Wednesday and I'm another year older. It will be my third year celebrating it with my family this year. Last year, a few (less than 5) remembered. I can't blame them. It was PMR. It's my luck that it falls during exams.


Wednesday, September 28, 2005

My History Exam..

It was pretty bad. It was way much TOUGHER than what I expected. I could only answer the second page. Initially, I had this urge to hand in an empty paper. It seems that my conscience was what that made me continue. What did I do? I altered History with my story line. I know it's bad but that was all I can do than handing in an empty paper. Besides, my answers may be correct. Who knows?
The essay part to me left me speechless. I was like, "OMG, I'm gonna fail. I don't know how to answer any of this." But then again, I answered. Getting 3/10 is better than 0/10. At least I gave my best shot. To those who are wondering is this the Esther I know, yes it is. The Esther who had always suck at History but miraculously got an A for History in PMR. What can I say? Form 1-3 History was easier. Don't you think so? I guess I've got to get used to it. Maybe by the time I'm Form 5, History will be easier than I think it is. All I need is some motivation to keep me going in History.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005


Second day of exam is over and there is 9 more days of torture. 7 days to a special day and 4 more days to the weekend. BM paper wasn't difficult, neither was it easy. It can be done. My comment for the English paper is also the same.
My History is terrible and I don't think that I'll do well. A B3 is good enough for me. As long as I don't fail. I don't hope to compete with others, I just want to give it my best shot and it seems like time is my fearful opponent. I can't go against time. Time is not going to wait for me and time is flying faster than I imagined. Imagine how it would be like to relive history again. Will I be able change what I did wrong?
*Sigh.. Here I am again fantasizing. The stress in my head is driving me insane. There's so many things going on in my mind. I've got to hold on not to let go. I need to believe in myself and be confident of my decisions. But I still need to make sure that there is someone to hold me in case I fall off the cliff.
I've been hurt too many times by my friends. I don't show it in front of them. I scolded by my friend(A) today thanks to the other (B). What's worse was that her scoldings made a commotion. Everyone was looking at me and I was thinking about what had offended her. At that time, I was at my lowest point. No one was backing me up. I nearly burst into tears. (B) just stared at me with her you're-problem-and-its-not-my-fault-because-you-started-it face. I was cross and I didn't know what could be done. I could only say, "I'm not going to start a fight" with deep breathe and disappointment.
However, I wish someone would have come up to me and at least console me. The whole scene is was humiliating and thank goodness teacher was not in class. There were a number of times how I wanted to gave (A) and (B) a piece of my mind but I've got to persevere. Not to fight is better than to fight. It will only make things worse. I felt as though I was hit directly in my face. I'm hurt but nobody in school knows. Nobody cared.
*Inhale and Exhale* All I need to do know is study History.. So, adieu.. = S

Monday, September 26, 2005

My mid-term essay..

I want to share an essay which I wrote for my mid-term exam. With five options given, I chose one which required me to end with '...we looked at each other and smile.' I modified 80% of the original story(i read it before) and added a tad of my own. I did not have wild imagination at that time. The words in blue were was I took from the original.
Here it goes:

"Ring...Ring..," the sound of the school bell peirced into the atmosphere. It was a training camp for all the school prefects. All prefects had to stay in school for two days, one night. During the campfire, we were assigned to our duties for the next day. Then, we were sorted into pairs. My partner was Rani. My best friend. As it was our first time camping, both of us were excited and thrilled. I set up the tent with her and sprinkled some holy water around it. Then, I placed the bible beside my sleeping bag. A few seniors came to us and said," Watch out for ghost! This school is haunted by night not by day." And off they went with their sinister laughs. How mean!

Rani and I were worried but we calmed each other. It was a silent atmosphere until Rani and I heard a sound outside the tent. We got out and we felt a breexe. It was chilly and we could hear more of the noise we heard earlier. From the field, Rani and I walked to the carpark. There we saw a little girl. A girl gressed in white with blood on it. Her hair was black and long until her waist with a bow tied neatly on her ponytail. She looked so pale. So, Rani suggested we should bring her to our tent since it was so cold outside. However, she refused. Instead, she wanted us to play with her. I went back into the tent to grab myself a jacket and one for Rani too. We played and talk. I asked her why she was there but she wouldn't tell.

I looked at my watch and it was shown 3.00am. I was tired. So, was Rani. We told the little girl that we had to get some rest but she refused to let us go. This provoked her. She went purple with rage and became furious. Her eyes was blood red and was full of hatred. Her neat hair laid back flew all over and she lifted off the ground. I was dumbfounded. Rani stuttered and said to me, " I think she's a ghost.."

"Aargh!!! Aargh!!", we screamed at the top of our voices. We tried to wake our seniors but they paid no mind to us. The ghost appeared behind us and I felt chills down my spine. My hair stood on their ends. Rani was shaking and weak at knees. She suggested that we return to outr tent immediately. I agreed. We ran into our tents and I began to say my prayers whereas Rani was reading the al-Quran. The noise we heard from inside was gone. She vanished into thin airs.

The next morning, the seniors woke us up. we told them about our strange encounter. "Don't be silly. There is no such thing as ghosts," said Asha, a friend of mine. A gardener whom heard our conversation came to Rani and I. He told us that a primary school girl was killed near our school. She was involved in a car accident. That explained the blood on her clothes! Why she wouldn't near our tent was because I sprinkled holy water around it and placed a bible in the tent, her pal face and why she could lift off the ground. Then, the gardener chuckled.

Was it true that it was a ghost or was it a figment of my imagination? I confirmed withRani if she had experience the same thing I had. She told me she did. "I am glad that we are safe but most importantly, I am glad that you were with me," she said.

On the last day of camp, we knew what only both of us had experience. Before leaving, we looked at each other and smiled.


So, feel free to critic. Story line may not be that good.My grammar is like.. (you've read it), and not really a wide range of vocabulary. I hope you enjoyed reading my essay. If only I have the mood to produce an essay like this for my English papers tomorrow. Oh well, life is unpredictable.

Sunday, September 25, 2005


Let's see. I'm freaking out due to exams tomorrow. My head has gone completely cuckoo thinking about what to write about essay. Not like I know what is coming out anyway. There will be factual essays and also stories to write, not forgetting debate and speech. One more thing that worries me is Sastera which has all the DEEP deep meaning. What more, I have to memorise or at least know the theme, message, moral values and the characteristics of each character. If I were to compare my English to my BM, my English is way WAY better. I had this season of interest in English and that is why I realised that my English has improved (not boasting here). On the other hand, when I had interest in BM early of this year my English was terrible. In what way? Well, the broken vocabulary and grammar. BM at that time was one of my favourie subjects.
Came to think about it, I learned more of English when I'm blogging or reading other people's blog like Jared's and Henry's. Most of the tought words I've learnt were mostly from their posts. I wonder.. If I can improve my English by blogging in English, should I blog in BM instead? But that would be weird.
I'm worn out today. Because I slept at 3.45am this morning and woke up at 7.00am for youth activity, I didn't have any nap in the afternoon and was studying the whole afternoon and evening, I'm pretty much 'flat'. If only the government does not hold any exams, we won't need to study our time off. But then again, without exams, we won't know our limits. I think this year the government has given too many holidays. This has made school teachers unable to finish the syllabus. (like I have said it millions of times)
So, I end today's post..

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Goodness gracious..

The results for the Malaysian Idol is out tonight. Even thought I'm not into it, both my parents are. However, I'm happy for Daniel. I went to Jusco and Tesco with my brother searching for Creative Zen Micro. It has 5GB memory, radio fm and is a voice recorder. It's about RM 849 but they only have the dummy set to show us. It's not that they don't have stock but according to them, if they take out the real set, nobody would buy it which is true.
On my way back, I could not believe my eyes. 'Drive Safely, Think of Your Loved Ones' I quote. We know that we should not drink when driving neither should we be on handphones unless it is something like hand-free-kit. But guess what? I saw a DRIVER who had one hand on his handphone and smoking! Can you believe it? What kind of driver is that?
That's a wrap.

Friday, September 23, 2005


Once again I found myself sleepwalking. The last thing I remembered was me sleeping on my table when I was studying History. When I woke up to open the door for my dad, I realised that I was in my parents bedroom! Why is this thing happening to me?
I went to school today and 11 students were absent including 4 members of the G-unit. I was thinking of not going to school tomorrow. I don't want to face the EST teacher, History teacher and Bio teacher.
It is the 23rd today and my countdown has started. 12 days to a special day! Yay! But, I must still bear in mind that exams will still be on. So, I must not fantasize too much at the moment.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

I'm going nuts..

As we all know, exams are just around the corner and I think I'm going nuts. Stress, stress and STRESS!! Because of it, I can't think straight and I'm impatient. I'm short-tempered and because of it, my face is full of pimples (exaggerating here). History, Add. Maths and Morale is what worries me most now at the moment. As long as I pass, I'll be delighted.
Although doing well in Maths runs in my family but I think it doesn't go with Add. Maths. Mod. Maths on the other hand is a piece of cake. I think it's how the teacher teaches. If he/she doesn't kill our interest, that's good and vice versa.
As I was saying, I think I'm going nuts. In Bio class today, teacher explained to us why the carbon dioxide is not transported to the water but to the laminae. When he asked us where is the carbon dioxide transported to, out of nowhere I voiced out and answered "Water!".
The whole class just looked and some laughed at me. It was kind of embarasing. Not forgetting the headache I got and the class was like a morning market. I lost my patience and began to "SSHHHHHHH!!!!" them.
So, that's a wrap for today.

Monday, September 19, 2005


I just finished dinner after 1 1/2 hours of sleep. My eye was itching and it turned red. Hopefully, it gets better by tonight. I remembered sleeping in my room but when I woke up, I found myself in the living room. Whether I slept walk or not, I myelf am not sure.
I got the exams timetable today and on the third day, I have Add. Maths and History. Of all combinations. *roll eyes* I'm not even sure if I would be able to finish the chapters in time. Oh well, if I'm destined for the marks, I have no choice but to accept it, right?
I am beginning to see that Chemistry is easy. However, Add. Maths is getting tougher. I still need time to balance up everything. A special day is coming soon in more or less 2 weeks. I'm getting all excited about it but also a little disappointed because exams will be going on.
I heard this song today and it was introduced by Jasmine. It's 'You Raise Me Up' by Josh Groban. It's a very meaningful song.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

100 years..

I'm 15 for a moment;Caught in between 10 and 20;And I'm just dreaming;Counting the ways to where you are
I'm 22 for a moment;She feels better than ever;And we're on fire;Making our way back from Mars
15 there's still time for you;Time to buy and time to lose15, there's never a wish better than this;When you only got 100 years to live
I'm 33 for a moment;Still the man, but you see I'm a they;A kid on the way;A family on my mind
I'm 45 for a moment;The sea is high;And I'm heading into a crisis;Chasing the years of my life
15 there's still time for you;Time to buy, Time to lose yourself;Within a morning star
15 I'm all right with you;15, there's never a wish better than this;When you only got 100 years to live
Half time goes by;Suddenly you're wise;Another blink of an eye;67 is gone;The sun is getting high;We're moving on...
I'm 99 for a moment;Dying for just another moment;And I'm just dreaming;Counting the ways to where you are
15 there's still time for you;22 I feel her too;33 you're on your way;Every day's a new day...
15 there's still time for you;Time to buy and time to choose;Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this;When you only got 100 years to live

A song about life. Actually it's more to age. I hope you guys would like it. This is the lyrics for 100 years by Five For Fighting.

Saturday, September 17, 2005


I celebrated my dad's birthday early today because on Wednesday, I will be as busy as a bee. I went to Jusco and I met Kumitaa, Asha's sister. I felt awkward and I have never had a proper conversation with her before.
In school, I have been called a geek//nerd for studying by someone. I mean there is no harm to studying right? I didn't care about it because I wanted to do my best in studies. That was until I phoned my friend. I asked what she was doing but she didn't want to tell me. After a long time, she finally told me. She was studying. Okay. I accept that and I don't think that she is a sore loser or anything (she told me that she doesn't want anyone to think she's one). The thing is I don't like to be called names by someone who also doesn't like to be called names.
'To be a geek is better than not being one.' my made up quote...
She could have been honest with me and honesty what that isn't in people nowadays. I find certain friends of mine who would lie just to get back at me in studies. Some would not share their knowledge with others to excel. I just abhore this type of people. I know this is a competitive world an people would do anything to be successful. Many would realise this society of ours and I may be the last to know about it. Sometimes, I think I'm a beetle brain.
Slow in understanding, speech and movement.I didn't get the DJ part.
I was going through Blogthings just now and I took a few tests.

Your Inner Child Is Surprised
You see many things through the eyes of a child.Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.You cherish all of the details in life.Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.
How Is Your Inner Child?

Your Personality Profile
You are nurturing, kind, and lucky.Like mother nature, you want to help everyone.You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive.
A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker.You are good natured and people enjoy your company.You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you.
The World's Shortest Personality Test

I'm done for today. Cheerz.. =)

Friday, September 16, 2005

The Js'..

As I was reading one of my friend's blog, I felt sad. I have never expected to know that side of her. I wish I could help her but with my immature thinking, I don't think it'll help her. She is a sweet girl with a fragile heart. When I came to think about it, I have been blessed to have friends who are more mature than me. Sometimes, I feel contented with what I have but sometimes, I tend to complain when I fail.
Knowing Jared, Joo Ztat and Jasmine could be the best thing that have happened to me. I may not be good in expressing my heartful gratitude but they are friends I would never want to lose(besides the G-unit). Surprisingly, their names start with letter "J". They don't show in front of others their sensitive side. One thing I've learned from them is I should learn on how to be a good listener. Their mentality made me realised how immature I am.
At the moment, I still need to worry about finales. The pressure is building and this is not the time for me to breakdown. So, that's all for now.

Thursday, September 15, 2005


The atmosphere is getting tensed. Finales are in less than two weeks and I still haven't finish studying yet. So, looks like I would be burning the midnight oil for quite some time. Suffering until 7/10 (when my exams finish) and I'm on top of the world!!

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Radio DJ

It isn't my day today. I poked my finger with a stick today when I was eating jambu. It bleeded and I knew someone felt disgusted. I tried not to make a big deal out of it and was focused in my studies. I am still slow in revision considering that there are so many problems I'm going through. I have to work harder. I didn't watch tv today. I love tv and it is the one thing that can make me feel relax, besides blogging and participate in forums.
Tomorrow is the audition for MGS radio dj and unfortunately for me, I will be heading off to Jelapang when I thought it was KL to make passport. Most probably I'll be going overseas during the holidays. There goes my chance to become a dj until I consulted Izzati about this. She is one of those who are in charge of MGS radio. She told me that she'll talk Pn. Jamnah through and see what she (Pn. Jamnah) can do about it.
My fate rest in her hands. Haha..rite.. Well, if I don't get the part, I'll still be fine with it. The reasons for me to become a dj is not only to gain experience but I want to serve the school after giving up applying for prefect. I have been failing every prefect interview since primary. Maybe I'm not meant to play that role.
There's more or less one year until I finish SPM and go for Form 6. I can't wait those moment to arrive but yet I doubt I would want Form 5 to be longer.
I'm very tired and I have been burning the midnight oil for a very long time since mid-term. I could really sleep in if I have the chance to do so (with my parents permission). So, tata for now..

Monday, September 12, 2005

What goes on in my brain..

Mr. Yeong didn't come in for class. He'll be away for 4 days. That's good to know. It's been nearly a week that I'm worried about finales. MGS radio is up and they are finding students to become DJ. I was thinking about applying but I'm not sure if I have the courage to speak. Besides, it's only in the morning. How bad could it be right?
I had lack of sleep yesterday because my alarm clock ran late. When I thought it was only 12.00midnight, it was actually 1.00am. So, I only had 4 hours 15 minutes of sleep. As I was sleeping in the bus, I hit my head on the bars when the bus crossed bumpy roads. =(
I realised that I have grown fatter by the day and more pimples by the hour. Is chocolate the ease of all stress? I've got to find another way to not feel so stressed. I still remember when I used to rare fishes, parrot fish, I would feed them A LOT of fish food. That was how I use to release stress; by torturing the fishes. =)
Your Brain's Pattern
You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.
What Pattern Is Your Brain?

So, that's pretty much about today...

Saturday, September 10, 2005


My dad is finally home! Yay! With chocalate and souvenirs.
Well, today's oral wasn't so bad. I kind of panicked but I think the teacher understood. My topic was on 'Stress'. After a few seconds, she asked me if I was under stress.I replied with a yes. She then asked me why. When I was about to answer, I was flabbergasted, held back by something but I didn't know what. I took a deep breathe and answered her.
In less than 3 minutes, I was done. My friends were surprised that mine ended early. As for me, I was over the moon. BM lisan was not on. I was glad because I wasn't prepared. On the other hand, I was a little mad at the person who said that BM lisan wil be on today. I was burning the midnight oil yesterday writing down my part of the forum (lisan).
I'll be going to Jusco later with my family. It's been a week since I've been there. I'm going to burn a hole in my parents pocket. LOL... That is if I could find suitable clothes. The clothes in my closet are getting smaller for me.
I have been listening to Rain's songs as well as BoA's and I find both of them equally good.

So, until next time... =)

Friday, September 09, 2005


Tomorrow is a Saturday and we'll be having school. It's torture to go to school on a Sat. because Saturdays are suppose to be rest days from the stress but it seems that the government has made it a school day for the next 7 weeks. Could you believe it? I will be having exams on Saturdays too!
It just sucks. I'm having Eng. oral test and BM lisan. What made it worse was when I found out I will be the first to sit for oral. Face to face with teacher. It's just sad. I wish I don't need to go to school tomorrow but do I have a choice?
In Eng class today, I read about stress. Overstressed and understresed. Obviously, I am not understressed. There are 2 types of overstressed. One is acute stress and the other is chronic stress. I guess the one I'm facing is chronic stress. It just goes on and on and on. Never ending homework.
Thanks to my teachers who weren't able to finish the syllables in time, they just rushed through the chapters. My Chemistry teacher finishes 1 chapter in a week. It is only the crust she taught us and ka-boom, magically we all "UNDERSTAND".
My dad is returning from overseas today and I pray that he has a safe flight home. So, that's it for today.

Thursday, September 08, 2005


Today is the beginning of G-unit ( Me, Lena, Suhaida, Asha,Vanyasha). "G" stands for 'Girls' if I'm not mistaken. About the name, we know that it's kind of dicetak rompak but the meaning behind is different. =)
Our nickname is pretty weird....
Vanaysha: .::5cents::.
Suhaida: .::10cents::.
Lena: .::20cents::.
Esther (me): .::30cents::.
Asha: .::40cents::.
During BM tuition, we had 'ujian gempar' and it was terrible. Going unprepared and sitting there for two hours to write 1 karangan, 1 rumusan, 2 komsas questions and tatabahasa. It was torture but yet I survived!

Wednesday, September 07, 2005


It's been a few days since I posted my last entry. Exams are coming I had to start studying. I have been pretty busy and tired. Just two days ago, the air-cond broke down. So, it's kind of warm until yesterday when I decided to put two fans in a room. It hasn't been going well for me lately. I am addicted to songs from and I am TRYING to cultivate an interest for Physics, Chemistry and History. Two weeks to finales and I guess I will be posting once in a blue moon. I am so worried. What if I don't do well? What if I can't go beyond my expectations or my parents?
"What if..", that is common. I just hope to do better than my first term and do my best. If I was still in KL, I bet I will be doing better than this. But then again, if I didn't come to Ipoh, I wouldn't have met friends whom I never thought I'd be close with, bloggers (including from other states), and teachers.

...My Closest Friends...
School: Lena, Asha, Suhaida (love you guys lots.. )
Tuition: Joo Ztat, Kevin, Kian Teng, Bradley, Mandeep
Bloggers: Jared, Jasmine (keep on blogging you two)
Teachers: Mr. Chee (F.3 Science&M3), late Mr.Siva (F3 M3), -name unknown-(F3 Sej), Mr. Paul (F3 Eng), Mr. Federick (F3 Sains), Pn. Hamidah (F3 BM), Mr. Apu(Geo), Mr. Mano (Bio), Mr. Cheong (Phy), Mr Hin (Mod. M3&+M3), Mr Chan (Eng) - thank you for teaching me-

So long for now.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

"Empress Wu"..

Well, I have lose the virtual pet and added an extra button. I've changed the positions of a few things. Does it look better now or does it just look the same?
I went to three shopping centres and was shopping for clothes. But it seems that the new stocks do not suit me and it's difficult to get mt size probably because I'm fatter than before. =(
So, I just got books. Lots of books. One of them was "Empress Wu" written by Lilian Too. I've read a small part of it before in her magazine which my mum bought.
It's about a brilliant and beautiful concubine captivates the heart and mind of an emperor rises to become the only woman ever to ascend the dragon throne.
Set in seventh century Tang Dynasty China, a golden time of imperial splendour when the ancient capital of Changan is the gliterring center of the world.
It's a nice story and you should read it too if you have the chance to get it.
So, that's it.

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Promoting some stuff...

My bro is planning to get a digi camera. As you can see, it's nice isn't it? It's Casio Ex-S500. I hope by the time he gets it, I won't be hogging the camera all the time.

It's been a few days since I posted something. Well, I came to know about and it's really cool because you get to select songs for your visitors to listen to. But, I haven't been able to put it here yet but soon when I figure it out. There is a variety of songs which includes Japanese, Korean, Chinese, Malay and more.

There is an MGS forum coming up, created by Cai En with the help of her bro who created the SMI forum. So, Mgs-ians from Ipoh out there, come support our school. I have been busy these few days figuring out Physics.

I was reading the newspaper today and Samsung Z500 caught my eye. Besides that, I came across the hurricane which hit New Orleans. It was devastating when I imagined many lost their homes and their loss after the Tsunami.

The Form 5s' will be sitting for their SPM trials soon. So, good luck to you all. Do your best and leave the rest to God. Hakuna Matata!!!

So, I end today's post. ~Adieu~

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

"Full House"

Is he cute or what? My mum got "Full House", a Korean drama which a mixture of comedy and love. It's so touching when he acted as a caring person in some parts. Let me introduce.
Name: Jung Ji Hoon a.k.a Bi a.k.a Rain
D.O.B: 25th June 1982
Job: Singer, Actor
I'm not sure whether you guys have watched it or not but for those who haven't, it is a very recommended drama.

I woke up quite late today at 3.42 pm. Maybe it's because I was too exhausted.
I was listening to anime songs as well korean songs. The songs in "Full House" are really nice and I have fallen for it.
So,.. that's it for today.

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Summary of today...

Yay! Tomorrow's MERDEKA! No school and no tuition. I presented the tables I drew to Mr. Yeong and he rejected it. Asha presented one. He rejected it too. He didn't explain in detail about what her wanted and expected me to know. I have a limit in patience too. Today's Bio class was quite interesting. Asha and I were hitting each other and there was this insect which was flying all around.
Joo Ztat was poking me to make me help him. Mandeep, Thevin and the row of boys were acting quite strange. I got to know someone whom I wished I never got to know. He's just annoying and budges into my personal life in an EXTREME way. Some of you know who the person I'm mentioning is.
School today was boring. I slept for more than an hour when I think 5 people were giving their speeches. My class lost in the netball competitione 3 on 3. The class decorations were only kolam and flags. I'll put in the pictures of the kolam when I get them from Lena. Singing competition was nearly a disaster with only one day of preperation.
Well, that's for today.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Wrong side of the bed?!

I guess I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. It all started when my school bus came early and I NEARLY missed it. Thank goodness I didn't. Then, when I reached school, the small gate was still locked. So, I had to go to the other gate.

When, I reached my class, things begin to turn better for me but only for a while. I found extra three solutions for my Add Maths project from Su Yin. Thank you, girl! I didn't stammer during the Literature presentation. Then, we went to Chemistry lab. Someone apparently was showing me her temper(name not mentioned).

There I go again. I wasn't much welcomed by her to experiment acid. In fact, I wasn't included at all. I couldn't care much. What's over is over. Soon, it was Mod. Maths time and I finished my work given by Mr. Yeong early.

So, I decided to do the remaining of my Add. Maths project. All of a sudden he walked to my table and saw me doing my work. Of course he understood the concept "If you finish my work, you can do yours". He asked me to make a statistic of how students from my class come to school. I was honoured to help a teacher. On the other hand, I hate drawing thetables for statistic when he said "Hmm.. You must love drawing these tables(jadual)."During EST period, Pn. Tan came in and she gave us two free periods. However, her definition of free wasn't what I expected.
  1. No talking about something not related to EST
  2. No doing Add. Maths
  3. No doing other homework
  4. Either help the class,
  5. or Do EST workbook
  6. Talk about "BLOOD"

Now, you should now what I meant by her definition of free periods when you're not free to do anything else but EST. Alas, school ended.When, I reached home, I was checking out this blog. You should notice the changes in the video clip which is no more Hilary Duff but Usher. At least it doesn't buffers.

Until after dinner, I thought of drafting my morale report. Then, I realised that I have misplaced the form (prove that I did my social work). I was sad. I realised that I was not a responsible person and I tried so hard not to lose the form. All I know is that the form is somewhere in my room, piled up with books or placed in between of two books. Form, please appear...

So, I end today's post. Adios... =)

Sunday, August 28, 2005

These few day's..

Finally, the three day seminar ended. Tomorrow is a school day and this Wednesday would most probably be a school holiday. =) Thanks to Vishnu, I got a picture of the youth group including Thanges from Singapore and Murugan from KL. 3 people were missing though.
I finally finished my Add Maths project after three days. I only had 3 hours 30 minutes of sleep yesterday. Just when I thought that I would sleep earlier tonight, the project has once again stopped me from doing so.
Beginning of school is going to traumatise me with the coming finales. I haven't had enough time to prepare for it. Thinking about that, I still have two more oral test to go through. Tomorrow, my group wiill be presenting "si tenggang's homecoming". I hope it goes well as long I don't stammer in front of the class. It's so difficult to find confidence and speak fluently.
After a couple of days not blogging, I have also added a video clip. I got that link from Jasmine. Wake Up by Hilary Duff. I hope y'all like it.

Friday, August 26, 2005

-No Topic-

I'm still busy finishing add maths project. The first day of the "religous" seminar started today. It was so stuffy. That made me appreciate the cold. Usually, I'll be complaining about the coldness.
Holidays are going to end. I'm so sad. However, on next Wednesday, there won't be school on because it's Independence Day. Yay! I think when school resumes, I won't be able to blog so often anymore. I need to concentrate in my studies.
Anyway, got to get back to my project. Tata!!

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Thank you! Thank you!

Kar Men, you are a life-saver. Thank you so much for the add maths project. I love you (in a good way). You are always there when I need you. I should give you more credits. THANK U. THANK U. THANK U. THANK U. THANK U. x infinity...
Secondly, thanks to Lena as well for helping in the add maths project. Third, thanks to Kian Teng for giving me extra 2 solutions for 2 questions. Last but not least, my mum. However, I think she should be the first. Nevermind.. As long as I thank her. Thanks mum! Without you beside me, I don't know what I would do.
Without you all, I don't know what I would have done for my add maths project. Again, my heartful gratitude. Thank you... Thank you...

Wednesday, August 24, 2005


I am getting addicted to the internet and to blogging. I have been online nearly the whole day surfing here and there.
In tuition today, I got to talk to this Sam Tet guy who I think is a genius. Okay, maybe a smart guy (not to be so dramatic). He is a nice person and he has these mysterious sparkling eyes. No, I don't like him ( to those who have seen him before, you know who you are). I'm glad I got to know him. He speaks fluent English even though he is Chinese-educated.
I chatted with my friend from SMI. Let me rephrase that again, my long lost friend. Today is another person's birthday. To, Yew Wai, Happy Birthday!
Moving on is my add maths project. I am an obssesive compulsive person and I know I'm a geek. I have been trying to find 2 solutions for every question there is but some people don't take it seriously. I find i important because it's worth 10 marks of my endterm Add Maths paper. Besides, I want to score good grades and I don't want to be those who goes like "So what? It's only one solution. That is more than enough."
I hope I could get someone to lend me their answers or else... My fate depends on it (dramatic). Lena, help! =S

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Reflecting My Day..

Asha got the shock of her life. I made the whole class sing for her. Mr. Mano (Bio teacher) gave her RM50 but she didn't accept it. I know it's difficult and quite "segan". Well Asha, Happy Birthday! I hope you'll enjoy the chocalate and the card. =)
Sorry, I couldn't go out with you today but you did enjoy yourself, didn't you? With Van, Michelle and Joyce. I couldn't wake up today to go to tuition. Thanks to who? =) LOL... Looks like I would have to replace the class tomorrow.
I had Secret Recipe cake, brownie and set lunch for lunch today with my mum. Satisfying. =)
I have added a few links that is cheer related. It's for cheerleaders who are interested. So, enjoy ok?
So, I'll paw off here now. Till next time... =)

Monday, August 22, 2005

What a girl does when it comes to someone's b-day..

I was going to finish a card for a birthday girl. Her birthday is tomorrow and my whole left-hand was full of UHU glue. It's so difficult to cut the papers because I am terrible at cutting especially when it comes to a straight line or a circle.
At the same time, I am watching The Lizzie McGuire Movie. I'm all alone in the living room with papers surrounded around me. I went to Jusco today and got this black pants which is kind of nice. Treated mum a meal in Delifrance.
I have tuitions tomorrow. One starts at 8.30 in the MORNING and the other at 7.30pm. Asha (the birthday girl tomorrow) is going to be surprise. In case she is reading this, I will not mention what the surprise is.
Well, tata for now. =)

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Broken English post....

*using broken english today..
i finished my kerja amal adi.. had to climb n wipe the fan.. so high and i m afraid of heights.. i was watching kim possible-so the drama today... so nice but i was hoping 4 more action n fighting..
i feel kinda hungry.. didn't have proper meal.. morning: ate porridge, lunch:nothing, dinner: fried belacan rice and atapchi desert.. n i'm hungry..craving for McDonalds... or maybe cake..cheesecake...
I went to esprit today and find that their stocks are nearly the same every week even though they say that they have new stocks every week.. Esprit in ipoh is different from KL and Penang.. There, they have more variety...
*rumble.. that's my stomache rumbling... my bro is still in KL n he's comin back 2morrow.. anyway, it's getting late and i hv to stop 4 now.. got a big/early day to start tomorrow....

Friday, August 19, 2005

No topic..

School holidays have officially started. It's about time. However, I wish it would be longer than a week. My leg hurts after running 7 1/2 rounds = 1500m yesterday in school. Nothing talk about today. I have to do kerja amal tomorrow for my morale project.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Seth, my group's froggy...

This post is specially for my group's frog, Seth in order to remember her. Seth is a special frog which gave my group knowledge that no money can buy. I am sorry for disecting you. You were the best frog ever eventhough I got to know you for a few hours. You were the cutest thing ever. Seth, my froggy, may you rest in peace and lead a better life. I'll miss you and I will never forget you. [18-08-05]
I felt rather sad when I chlorofformed Seth. She tried to jump out and was standing in the "bikar". She knocked her head on the white tile we placed on top of the "bikar" a few times and that was the moment where I nearly broke down. My heart was crumbled into pieces. I was taking away a life. However, she served us well. My heartful gratitude.
Not only did Seth stepped on the other side but many frogs too from the Form 4s' and 5s'. May the other froggies rest in peace too.
And that concludes today's post.